Where's the loop, again? I seem to have misplaced it...
It's odd... I've discovered I've grown very accustomed to that last-to-know, out-of-the-loop feeling. What's even more odd is that I'm not bothered by this in the least (so, PLEASE, people, don't go apologizing all over yourselves--it's okay, really. You didn't do anything wrong, and I'm certainly not upset). It's just a kind of singular feeling; I'm not entirely sure how to describe it. But, really... I'm very out-of-the-loop with pretty much ALL the would-be loops in my life... My shared interests, my friends, my floormates, my co-workers, even my family. I'm just plain loopless. And, surprisingly enough, I'm absolutely okay with this. It leaves me remarkably peaceful--or maybe that's remarkably apathetic, it's hard to tell. As a Libra, I'm a bit puzzled by the fact that I don't care in the least about being the odd woman out, but, then again, I once had a profile tarot reading done for me, and I DID get the Queen of Swords in the place of my personality... Come to think of it, three out of the four cards were Swords (the other was a Cup). Go figure. All told, it's really my own doing, I suppose. It's not like I make an effort to participate. I don't initiate anything (conversations, activities, whatnot, online or in real life) with other people, unless I have some sort of business I need to accomplish, and I decline probably at least a quarter of the few offers made to me. I'm not told things, and I don't go asking questions for the most part. Oh well. I suppose I'm just slowly preparing myself for when I'm out of college, because then I'm leaving, and never coming back, and I expect there will be a lot of folks I'll never see again, and probably some I'll never be in contact with again once I'm gone. Life happens, I guess, and I expect I'll be on my own with it for a while here. Life moves onward.