Realization
A few days ago Junsu released a ballad song titled, "Yesterday" and I immediately fell in love with the song because it conveyed so much regret and hope. I had assumed that people would like the song as well. But watching people's mv reaction, they said they didn't like the song because it was a ballad and it sounded like every other ballad song they heard. I felt sad and angry to hear them say that, that they couldn't appreciate Junsu's vocals and it reminded me of my own experience with writing angsty stories.
I write them to feel better about myself (not sure if it's the same with Junsu). I don't like to socialize and I don't have any friends to lean on, so when I write angsty stories, to me it's equivalent to a person telling their one close friend their problems. So when readers bypass my sad stories, it feels like they don't want to hear my problems, as if reading it will cause their good day to be ruined. It hurts to think that it might be true ... that no one cares. Life feels hopeless everyday and every second it feels like I'm not really living. I wonder when I can finally escape this world and be free.
I'm sorry, I have a lot on my mind right now and just wanted to let out my thoughts that have been lingering around for a while now.
I write them to feel better about myself (not sure if it's the same with Junsu). I don't like to socialize and I don't have any friends to lean on, so when I write angsty stories, to me it's equivalent to a person telling their one close friend their problems. So when readers bypass my sad stories, it feels like they don't want to hear my problems, as if reading it will cause their good day to be ruined. It hurts to think that it might be true ... that no one cares. Life feels hopeless everyday and every second it feels like I'm not really living. I wonder when I can finally escape this world and be free.
I'm sorry, I have a lot on my mind right now and just wanted to let out my thoughts that have been lingering around for a while now.