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it's been awhile since my last update. hmmm. i don't get much out of writing these things down, anymore...
mediocre things:
i am sick.
and sleepy.
and i'm probably not going to paint much more. i think it might just be time to stop, and finish concentrating on the things that are more important. health. something constant.
i'm tired of being trite, or contrived, or unhappy. these things always seem to happen when i paint, or write. bill told me yesterday, "damn, you really have learned to paint," but he is a sculptor and doesn't know. he also said i like ms. saville too much.
most of them agree.
i have too many things going on in my life, and they are all unfinished, with the loose threads hanging out. i am not making many people happy. i went from heartbroken (still), to heartbreaker (sad) in a very short time. i should put us all out of our misery.
i haven't seen baker in over a month (he doesn't want to "force a friendship," heh, good one), and my div. III is slowly taking shape as a complete bust.
now, the good things:
soy milkshakes. slurpees with eric and mike in the middle of the night. getting up early and having sunshine face. having friends close by always. fuzzy socks. fuzzy boots. tea. things off of ebay (an orange typewriter that is beautiful. $4.26). lifesize rubber molds of my hands. tea. long walks outside when i'm not afraid of falling on the slippery.
mediocre things:
i am sick.
and sleepy.
and i'm probably not going to paint much more. i think it might just be time to stop, and finish concentrating on the things that are more important. health. something constant.
i'm tired of being trite, or contrived, or unhappy. these things always seem to happen when i paint, or write. bill told me yesterday, "damn, you really have learned to paint," but he is a sculptor and doesn't know. he also said i like ms. saville too much.
most of them agree.
i have too many things going on in my life, and they are all unfinished, with the loose threads hanging out. i am not making many people happy. i went from heartbroken (still), to heartbreaker (sad) in a very short time. i should put us all out of our misery.
i haven't seen baker in over a month (he doesn't want to "force a friendship," heh, good one), and my div. III is slowly taking shape as a complete bust.
now, the good things:
soy milkshakes. slurpees with eric and mike in the middle of the night. getting up early and having sunshine face. having friends close by always. fuzzy socks. fuzzy boots. tea. things off of ebay (an orange typewriter that is beautiful. $4.26). lifesize rubber molds of my hands. tea. long walks outside when i'm not afraid of falling on the slippery.