today sucks
i had my first accident today. at the train station, yael was in the car, i was waiting for mama farber's train to get in. i was waiting alongside a curb, behind someone else, and the bus behind me honked, cause it couldn't get around. so i pulled out, overestimating how much room i had, and hit the car in front of mine's fender. the woman flipped out on me. she was driving a fancy lexus. she was all "are you babysitting, is this your car?" and then my mom got off the train and dealt with her. ya know how everyone makes fun of me cause i cannot deal with conflict? yeah, this was a prime example. if my mom hadn't been there i don't know what i would have done. but the woman made me feel like shit for being a teenage driver and being careless. ok, the scratch on my bumper was more visible than the one on her fender. i know i'm responsible, i take full responsibility for it. but she didn't have to be such a bitchy whore about her fucking lexus. she wanted to call 911 to have the police come down. you don't call 911 when it's not an emergency!!!! we called the regular police number. the officers who came were very nice. they encouraged her not to make a big deal out of it, because her insurance company would say that she was parked illegally. so hopefully...my mom gave her contact info, making sure to say rabbi. lol. and yael's only comment to this whole situation: "i saw real handcuffs!!"
i don't know what i would have done if yael had somehow gotten hurt. i don't think i could live with myself if she was hurt by me being a careless idiot...
i need a hug.