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this week hasn't been bad at all, looking past the uni front. though i have decided to submit my AA portfolio late (believing that more time will allow me to do a better quality submission......ha), i've been getting other things done: i'm redoing the scaffolding/the silken tent comparison essay so far okay, been spending quality time with people esp. rachel, went for the URA essay test (it was good to be back). i stay up late to trick myself into believing that it is possible to stop time...... but getting out of bed the next morning is too painful i can't keep this up.
because the future is presently obscured by this huge fog of waiting, there is nothing much else to think about except the past. which is no fun, because i still ache about a lot of things i didn't manage to fix. which is why i am very thankful for the meaningful parts of these few days, like conversations with edward and listening to music and the little bit of reading i do. in between, my brain is just killing time.
i need to make more plans, do more things, read more books, buy more CDs, buy more clothes/shoes/bags/makeup/everything. i'm praying more and things are feeling better. i would like to be more in love with these days that the Lord has made and have less time to reflect.
because the future is presently obscured by this huge fog of waiting, there is nothing much else to think about except the past. which is no fun, because i still ache about a lot of things i didn't manage to fix. which is why i am very thankful for the meaningful parts of these few days, like conversations with edward and listening to music and the little bit of reading i do. in between, my brain is just killing time.
i need to make more plans, do more things, read more books, buy more CDs, buy more clothes/shoes/bags/makeup/everything. i'm praying more and things are feeling better. i would like to be more in love with these days that the Lord has made and have less time to reflect.