another early morning post...

[miopiccolo]

I've been awake since 5:30 again.  This time, I know it's because of my doctor's appointment on Thursday.  I found out on Thursday that my doctor will be out of town the week after my due date.  She brought up seeing the other doctor that she works with and also inducing on the 16th or 17th so she could be there.  Now, neither of these options are exciting to me.  Do I want to have another doctor that I've never met helping me make decisions, or do I want to go through an induction to make sure my doctor's there to help me make decisions?  I haven't been able to sleep very well because I keep thinking about all the outcomes of both of these scenarios.  Of course, there's other factors that are weighing in on my decisions.  One of them is how the rest of the summer will play out (my parents need to be back home by the 29th of June, so time with them could be limited if I go very late).

My appointment is on Tuesday where I can see if my body has made any progress and make a more informed decision.  Really, after all the reading I've done this morning (how many medical articles can you read in 2 hours? a lot), it sounds like if your cervix is ready to go, an induction can be very successful.  A friend of mine has had 2 very successful inductions.  Also, when the induction happens, it will be after my due date (which makes it that much more possible for a success).

Am I trying to talk myself into an induction?  Possibly.  Do I actually want one for sure?  I don't know.

Really, if this kid decides to make an appearance before Tuesday, all this would be moot.