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i got to talk to my mom today. i called her and we talked on the phone for hours.
she said shes going through a long bout of depression now that i'm not there anymore.
it really makes me feel horrible, but i really know where shes coming from.
i cant say i've been happy at all lately, with anything.
i wish i could say that theres a little glimmer of something to make me look forward to my day...
but there isnt.
i'm so lonely its unreal. its like everyday i just wish and wish and wish i could find someone.
every time i think i do, it gets fucked up, or i get let down.
every little thing is getting to me
everything is making me cry at the drop of a dime.
i have that constant lump in my throat... like im holding back tears.
i'm holding back more than tears.
she said shes going through a long bout of depression now that i'm not there anymore.
it really makes me feel horrible, but i really know where shes coming from.
i cant say i've been happy at all lately, with anything.
i wish i could say that theres a little glimmer of something to make me look forward to my day...
but there isnt.
i'm so lonely its unreal. its like everyday i just wish and wish and wish i could find someone.
every time i think i do, it gets fucked up, or i get let down.
every little thing is getting to me
everything is making me cry at the drop of a dime.
i have that constant lump in my throat... like im holding back tears.
i'm holding back more than tears.