*HEADDESK* ... *is selfish*
Okay, so. Stewart is supposed to be my mate, my guy who I talk shit with and have fun and discuss movies with giant fighting robots etc. Alright we discussed homosexuality yesterday but ~apart from that... we're not deep. This is good for me. Sometimes I need a fucking break and to get out of my own head and chill out.
THIS IS WHY HIS LIFE CRISIS IS NOT WORKING FOR ME MMKAY??
*sigh* See? Selfish. But he's talking to me like I've got all the answers. He seems to forget I'm only 20 years old. and yeah, I ~really need him going 'what's the point? what's the point?' It's like, YEAH ASK ME I'M PERFECTLY NORMAL AND SANE. ugh. I hate myself for being all 'do not care'.
So? What do I do? I need to fucking step up, and be a proper friend and support him for fuck's sake. Try and help him figure shit out. It'll never be reciprocated because I think if I told him any shit about me he would just... not be able to handle it. But that's okay. That's how life works.
This was good. I needed to realise what a selfish fuck I am.
THIS IS WHY HIS LIFE CRISIS IS NOT WORKING FOR ME MMKAY??
*sigh* See? Selfish. But he's talking to me like I've got all the answers. He seems to forget I'm only 20 years old. and yeah, I ~really need him going 'what's the point? what's the point?' It's like, YEAH ASK ME I'M PERFECTLY NORMAL AND SANE. ugh. I hate myself for being all 'do not care'.
So? What do I do? I need to fucking step up, and be a proper friend and support him for fuck's sake. Try and help him figure shit out. It'll never be reciprocated because I think if I told him any shit about me he would just... not be able to handle it. But that's okay. That's how life works.
This was good. I needed to realise what a selfish fuck I am.