Promises, promises. (One day, I promise)

[minus_four]

You know I don't deserve to be alive?
You know what someone else would do?

Kill all the senasation
If it can't be good, kill it.
If you can't take it, why you trying, girl?

You've hated yourself for half your life
What the hell you waiting for, kid?

Waste of space. Dirt. Never even meant to be (you knew that, right?)

I hear you say 'sweetheart' and it's foreign,
Half of me thinks you're joking.
But there's worry in your eyes.
You see the dark around mine;
Hear sleepness nights.

I'm sorry I can't tell you.
I want to trust you, you know. More than you know.

but you only hold me up like this
'cause you don't know who I really am

You'll never know me
And that's for the best, I promise you.

And I'll keep myself alive.
If only to preserve it.

One day I'll live up to the 'sweetheart'
I swear.

At least I'll try.
I wish I could promise you more.

EDIT: IF THERE WAS EVER AN INCENTIVE TO NOT GET WASTED. THIS WOULD BE IT.

*facepalm*