Shiver

[mintyfrenchmaid]

I just got home and I think tonight is the first night in like 2 weeks that I don't have any set homework. I mean I have stuff I could be working on, but nothing too much. So yeah, I got caught smoking last night. I waited for Jordan to call until like 9:50 and then I decided to go to bed. I had a cigarette and was falling asleep when I heard the phone ring. I'm like "shit, if my mom comes in here, she's gonna smell it". And of course, she comes in..."are you awake?" I'm like "yeah" and she's all "is smells like smoke...were you smoking" I'm all "not in here..." lol. It was so dumb. But yeah, Jordan called, they're not gonna tour California, but they are Washington. And they're gonna start over. So we talked and then Jordan was so sweet. Cuz I'm like "dude, you're falling asleep on the phone, in the morning I'm gonna be like 'Jordan! Wake up!" And he's all "that'd be awesome". I'm like "why?" and he says "becuz, to know that you stayed with me all night". I'm like "awwwww, of course I would". It was just really sweet. He wants to have a threes-some. I'm like "hmm...I'll talk to some people", when actually I only know one girl who isn't too uptight. Of course she said no, not a surprise but oh well. Jordan really wants Ashlee too, but she keeps saying no. I'm all "just go get two other chicks that you know will" and he's all "how would YOU feel about that" becuz he knows I'd be fucking jealous but I'm like "well, I'd feel like you were just trying to get some ass". We started reading Night in english, it seems pretty good. I met Jordan after class, we talked, went to french and played a game. Our team won, surprisingly. In painting, I changed my whole book. Like I changed my name page, I put this heart with mirror lights and eyes on it. And then I changed the comic page to a poem in the sky. And I'm just changing a whole bunch of pages. We're starting a still life tomorrow. I talked to Josie, everyone was getting along, it was great. And Jordan came in which "makes everything betta" hehe. Rosey!! Yeah, and Rosey painted the back of her book like the opposite of her front, that's freaking awesome. At lunch, same old same old except today ^ came. I was like "whoa..." He waved and said hi and all these girls were "what?!" And when he left they're all "he's so fucking hot, blah blah blah". I'm like thinking 'hehe, you guys have no idea'. Went to fourth, finished Schindler's List. Pretty good. I saw AZ, which made me think of *...I missed him so much today. I thought about him all day, especially in painting. He's always just right there...like I could touch him, in my mind, but then he's gone and I feel so hollow...I dunno. Jordan came to lunch too, he got kicked out of class. He was really...touchy today lol. In fifth, I made this puzzle thing and Ms. Lahue took over the class. I love Ms. Lahue. Ashlee and I talked for a bit, she definitely says no to the threes-some, it's weird, we're like sisters. We have like two years of history that you just can't taint on. I dunno, it's hard to explain. I walked with Jordan after school, we went to the music building. He really wants to get another chick, especially Ashlee becuz she's hot. I think he should just go find two other chicks and get it out of his system. Becuz unless I don't know the chick and she's fucking way hot, I doubt I'll do it. Unless there's another guy, like 2 guys 2 girls, that'd be pretty hot. Anyways, I'm copying down a song and just chilling. My mom talked to me about smoking, my dad knows. She says she wants me to quit for my health. I think I will, I don't wanna stress her out. We're moving to Newberg! That's pretty awesome. And Josie is not moving to California right away. And * left me messages last night, I'm gonna call him at 5:45, on his first break and see what's up. Well, that's pretty much it, bye!

You build me up, you knock me down
Provoke a smile, and make me frown
You are the [king] of runaround
You know it's true

You chew me up and spit me out
Enjoy the taste I leave in your mouth
You look at me, I look at you
Neither of us know what to do

There may not
Be another way to your heart
So I guess I'd better find a new way in
I shiver when I hear your name
I think about you but it's not the same
I won't be satisfied 'til I'm under your skin

Immobilized by the thought of you
Paralyzed by the sight of you
Hypnotized by the words you say
Not true but I believe them anyway

So come to bed, it's getting late
There's no more time for us to waste
Remember how my body tastes
You feel your heart begin to race

There may not
Be another way to your heart
So I guess I'd better find a new way in
I shiver when I hear your name
I think about you but it's not the same
I won't be satisfied 'til I'm under your skin

You feel your heart begin to race!
There may not
Be another way to your heart
So I guess I'd better find a new way in
I shiver when I hear your name
I think about you but it's not the same
I won't be satisfied 'til I'm under your skin

-"Shiver" Maroon 5