watch you spin around in your highest heels
what the hell is wrong with me that i cant stop this stupid jordan crap.
like why is my self esteem that im not just saying good bye? that i will still answer his phone calls, or go to waterbury to see him, or whatever.
i dont think of myself as a weak girl but i let people, especially boy people, walk all over me. i know hes being sketchy, all of the clues are there- the flirty myspace comments, the surreptitious phone calls, not letting me see that hes reading text messages. i dont know WHAT the heck im doing.
but it irritates me.
and im really sick to death of feeling so sad.
i absolutely sobbed the entire drive from waterbury back to new haven the other night. i knew other drivers were whispering about me, i could see them looking at me. but i couldnt get ahold of myself.
i feel like my heart breaks every time i think about it.
ugh never dating agian. too much trouble.
like why is my self esteem that im not just saying good bye? that i will still answer his phone calls, or go to waterbury to see him, or whatever.
i dont think of myself as a weak girl but i let people, especially boy people, walk all over me. i know hes being sketchy, all of the clues are there- the flirty myspace comments, the surreptitious phone calls, not letting me see that hes reading text messages. i dont know WHAT the heck im doing.
but it irritates me.
and im really sick to death of feeling so sad.
i absolutely sobbed the entire drive from waterbury back to new haven the other night. i knew other drivers were whispering about me, i could see them looking at me. but i couldnt get ahold of myself.
i feel like my heart breaks every time i think about it.
ugh never dating agian. too much trouble.