6 cups of coffee a day
so rather than just write a two word entry, i figured it would feel better to actually get somethings off my chest.
first of all, i absolutely adore new haven and never want to leave. i love my roommate, i love my apartment, i love my neighborhood, and most importantly, i love my neighborhood bar.
so as i wrote last time, jordan and i broke up last week. i never saw him because i work like 8 million hours per week now, plus we were fighting absolutley constantly, i didnt trust him, he didnt trust me, we just totally hated each other (unless we were in bed).
so i move out, to new haven, and dont talk to him for a while. like a week. i saw him on thursday. hed been calling all these girls, that he used to hook up with before we got together, at like 1 am, 2 am, etc. dont bs me and tell me that they werent booty calls. you're a fucking liar. i take my keys off the ring and throw them at him and storm off. i wasnt sad but now im so sad. i dont know why. i hate him but im on the verge of tears. UGH.
so the night we break up, i of course go to rudys and drink with emily, and meet this totally totally cute guy. rosie somehow like passes me over to him and he asks me to get pizza with him, and then walks me home and comes inside and stays over but nothing really happened BECAUSE he has a girlfriend. so whatever, im really sad and i just wanted him to like be there or whatever. so i see him at rudys the other night and ask him if hed like to get pizza and all these girls are like hissing at me and death staring and hes like uh no no pizza however my friend matt is really into you, so you should go talk to him! WHAT THE HELL IS THAT? "uh i'll never sleep with you but my considerably less attractive friend will, so have at it!" GOD im so insulted.
i ended up seeing him last night when i was waiting for frederic to come and he was with the girlfriend and made this HUGE show of saying hi to me and asking me if i got pizza last night like in front of her so that was mad sketchy, and i havent told anyone baout what happened because of the girlfriend but chris looked at me and was like uhh that was so weird, whats that all about? and PLUS he was all blowing me kisses in front of his friends.
god im taking a freaking BREAK from stupid BOYS WTF. p.s. hes freaking 31 years old like GROW UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
i've been so stressed, and not eating at all, and im starving but i drink too much coffee and i think im getting an ulcer, and im grinding my teeth all night and clenching my jaw all day so i constantly have a headache and i realy need to just chilllllllllllllllllllll thank god im not working at ahimsa tomorrow night i need to sleep and cry and then i can pick it all up and move on. being scared that you'll never be loved again is certainly no reason to stay in a relationship with someone who's driving you NUTS
first of all, i absolutely adore new haven and never want to leave. i love my roommate, i love my apartment, i love my neighborhood, and most importantly, i love my neighborhood bar.
so as i wrote last time, jordan and i broke up last week. i never saw him because i work like 8 million hours per week now, plus we were fighting absolutley constantly, i didnt trust him, he didnt trust me, we just totally hated each other (unless we were in bed).
so i move out, to new haven, and dont talk to him for a while. like a week. i saw him on thursday. hed been calling all these girls, that he used to hook up with before we got together, at like 1 am, 2 am, etc. dont bs me and tell me that they werent booty calls. you're a fucking liar. i take my keys off the ring and throw them at him and storm off. i wasnt sad but now im so sad. i dont know why. i hate him but im on the verge of tears. UGH.
so the night we break up, i of course go to rudys and drink with emily, and meet this totally totally cute guy. rosie somehow like passes me over to him and he asks me to get pizza with him, and then walks me home and comes inside and stays over but nothing really happened BECAUSE he has a girlfriend. so whatever, im really sad and i just wanted him to like be there or whatever. so i see him at rudys the other night and ask him if hed like to get pizza and all these girls are like hissing at me and death staring and hes like uh no no pizza however my friend matt is really into you, so you should go talk to him! WHAT THE HELL IS THAT? "uh i'll never sleep with you but my considerably less attractive friend will, so have at it!" GOD im so insulted.
i ended up seeing him last night when i was waiting for frederic to come and he was with the girlfriend and made this HUGE show of saying hi to me and asking me if i got pizza last night like in front of her so that was mad sketchy, and i havent told anyone baout what happened because of the girlfriend but chris looked at me and was like uhh that was so weird, whats that all about? and PLUS he was all blowing me kisses in front of his friends.
god im taking a freaking BREAK from stupid BOYS WTF. p.s. hes freaking 31 years old like GROW UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
i've been so stressed, and not eating at all, and im starving but i drink too much coffee and i think im getting an ulcer, and im grinding my teeth all night and clenching my jaw all day so i constantly have a headache and i realy need to just chilllllllllllllllllllll thank god im not working at ahimsa tomorrow night i need to sleep and cry and then i can pick it all up and move on. being scared that you'll never be loved again is certainly no reason to stay in a relationship with someone who's driving you NUTS