ok fine, i'll follow my own advice

[minorking1121]

Everyone has been telling me to do it. family, friends... people I talk to despite not knowing all that well. And believe me i know it has to be done, I always have but i guess i was holding onto whatever it is all those other people were holding on to when i told them the same thing. It's true it's not easy to do the right thing even when you and everyone around you knows what it is. I have no problem seeing what to do, i just have issues when it comes to doing it. Cause as selective as i may be when it comes to people, i still don't really like making ANYONE feel bad. That's why everyone in the world ends up talking to me even if it's people i can't stand, hippies all drugged out in art studios in particular seem to do this, i mean they say nothing but bullshit and I can't stand them... but i'm not gonna do anything to cause confrontation or upset them. I'll just call Kyle and tell him how horrible the last hour and a half was. And he'll share with me thoe horrors of his roommate. But i'm just hoping anyone i do still spend time with will help me out, cause it won't be easy. I'm sorry to everyone i've like, bothered with my problems but i'm hoping i'll have alot less to complain about from now on. I need to start seeing John more and try to continue seeing kyle now and then. School really won't be so bad cause... well school isn't very difficult unless i get totally lazy and the people I know up there are actually pretty reliable. It really is nice to know i have people who care about me, i'm amazed how many of the friends i have really do turn out to be so great. You've all really helped me to like... be able to do this, cause when i start to doubt myself you remind me not to make the same mistakes again... it's really alot of "You know what to do, you need to do it" and it's true. No matter how bad it gets, i'm still better off. My life is great, i've got good friends, the best/smartest/most supportive family imaginable and i'm really lucky that things work out so well for me in school/work/and my life in general. In the grand scheme of things I can only do my best to be a good person ... and look out for the people i care about as best i can. I can't think of any better way to live my life.

Night, i have work at 8am.