April and it's still snowing
Long time no journal =w=;;
Ssoo... after that graduation journal... I got a spot in the school I wanted to get into and I've been studying here ever since =w= SO MUCH MATHS and physics and electricity and all those lessons... I'm managing but boy have my grades dropped. Ahaha. And I don't feel I've really learned most of the things I should have. It's really hard to adjust to studying by yourself too... I've never really had to do that before, I've kinda just... learned enough by sitting in class
But it's been a lot more fun than at my previous school... because I actually have a few friends here \o/ I don't really hang out with them outside of school but this is just fine with me, I don't have to be all alone all day anymore...
And speaking of friends, at the start if autumn I made some AWESOME LOVELY WONDERFUL friends through twitter <3 ahhh I love all my talesfags <33 And you people I met later on too <33
...*sigh* Somehow the school nurse and then doctor I visited to continue my medication didn't seem all that impressed by them though. It seems people still don't really see online friendship the same way as IRL friends... I guess it's not exactly the same; but for me, I think it's actually even better. Meeting face-to-face, it makes it really hard for me to actually talk about things; online, while I still have difficulties, I can talk much more freely and share my thoughts like I never could IRL... I've told several online friends about some things I've never brought up with most people I first met IRL... like my depression... I shared some of my thoughts and feelings about it a while ago and haven't been hiding it ever since... whereas I don't really want some IRL people to know. >_>;;
So um. I'm not sure why is face-to-face friendship seen as so much better. I'm not a very touch-y person anyway and meeting people with same interests as you can be really hard offline. Sure I'd love to actually hang out with my lovely friends offline, too, if that just was possible, whatwith most of them living in South-East Asia and Germany and Canada and so... .__.'' And even the Finnish sweeties live hours away, it's not a distance I can really cross very often. >: ...meetup coming up on 13.-15.4. uuhh I can hardly wait <33
Ummh. That got long. What else. I had two wisdom teeth pulled the day before, it's still kinda hurting but I'm managing. The other two gonna be gone in a few weeks too... It's part of a bigger thing that... I'm not really sure I want to talk about... It's kind of an issue I have with my looks >_>;; I'm sure some of you can deduce it from that already if you for some reason want to...
Slowly working on cosplays. I'm mostly trying to not think about them but I guess I should pick up the pace if I want to finish in time. Thinking of the Sophie cosplay especially brings up my body issues too though >_>;; I'm going to make the worst Sophie ever I'm so fat ;;;;;; Why don't I have the willpower to change that and start working out goddammit.
For some days now I haven't really been into playing anything... It's weird, usually I'm always wanting to play something... I've been reading Magi though, it's pretty great. I absolutely adore Sinbad haha... obsession levels are reaching dangerous amounts, I'm even calling him "husbando" occasionally and I've never done that before with a character @_@//// Mmm. I'm trying to ignore it but I'm really worried about the "Too Cool to Live" trope coming into effect on him... Possibly partly combined with "Mentor Occupational Hazard" seeing he's been kind of a role model for Alibaba. >__>;;; I mean he's got more Djinn, more experience, epic other fighting techniques, his kingdom is prosperous and the people love him, the generals are all also totally badass and respect him (well I guess they do, the Kou empire diplomatic hassle kind of put that under suspicion lol), he's an inspiring and charming leader (and gets all the chicks haha)... How is he not overshadowing Alibaba? I quote, "Clearly, this character is Made Of Cool. Equally clearly, this character, if he is not the Main Character, must die, because he overshadows the main character." Hmmh. I'm just really hoping Alibaba's coolness levels and Power of Friendship with Aladdin and Morgiana (and Hakuryuu??) are high enough to not put Sinbad in storytelling-point-of-view danger HAHA;;;
Wow I was going to write an update about my life but suddenly, SINBAD eh goes to show how obsessed I am. But he's so cool and awesome and inspiring and... sexy ///// *blush* umh. I mean he really is inspiring, on Monday I was having the most HORRIBLE morning, but reading a little Magi with him in it combined with a bunch of fan-art cheered me right up. >w< //// I can't remember most other stuff I like having that strong of an effect when I was feeling down. This guy is even... um... ///// What I mean is... if he was real I might even question my sexuality ////// omg I said it AAHHH
---SEE?! This guy has a ridiculously strong effect on me. I get all girly and mushy and squealing and D: D: Someone make it stoooppp I want to be manly
...eek school mate showed up. I don't think he cares to read my journal but some of the stuff I've just written is SO EMBARRASSING. --DKAJSBFKS he looked at my screen NO IT'S NOT A SCHOOL THING DON'T LOOK IT'S NOT INTERESTING uhhh
...I was going to keep this pretty emoticon-free but lookie, another goal unaccomplished. \o/ That's just too me I guess. Which brings me to a video chat I was in a few nights ago. It really made a difference, seeing the other people sitting there, especially when they reacted to something :DD And I met an interesting person through it, too. We don't really share the exact same interests (I'm really into JRPGs while she's more a manga person) but I liked her. >w<;; Now I'm thinking if I shouldn't bring up again the possibility of a video chat with Talesfags... The thought makes me so shy but it would probably turn out to be amazing, if the connection just works alright haha.
Blahblahblah how did I make a journal cut again...
..accidental journal cutting with emoticons. \o/ mmm Elisa's coming over today and I'm gonna watch her play Assassin's Creed 2. Which reminds me I need to text her that I did come to school today.
I think I ran out of shit to ramble about so I'll end it here. \o/ No wait I submitted a video interview last night, it was scary and I looked and sounded just HORRIBLE on it but. Now I'm waiting for if they inform me they won't take me, or just leave me hanging like most other places do. Exciting. Almost as exciting as waiting for that VPD package (Star Ocean The Last Hope, PS3 version) that was supposed to take "most likely" 2-4 days but has taken 11 and counting. They should inform me if it's going to take that much longer... I'm going to laugh if the Tales of Destiny 2 I ordered from Yesasia gets here faster, since I ordered it way later and it's coming from abroad.
Hmm go read Magi if you already haven't, it's great!
Ssoo... after that graduation journal... I got a spot in the school I wanted to get into and I've been studying here ever since =w= SO MUCH MATHS and physics and electricity and all those lessons... I'm managing but boy have my grades dropped. Ahaha. And I don't feel I've really learned most of the things I should have. It's really hard to adjust to studying by yourself too... I've never really had to do that before, I've kinda just... learned enough by sitting in class
But it's been a lot more fun than at my previous school... because I actually have a few friends here \o/ I don't really hang out with them outside of school but this is just fine with me, I don't have to be all alone all day anymore...
And speaking of friends, at the start if autumn I made some AWESOME LOVELY WONDERFUL friends through twitter <3 ahhh I love all my talesfags <33 And you people I met later on too <33
...*sigh* Somehow the school nurse and then doctor I visited to continue my medication didn't seem all that impressed by them though. It seems people still don't really see online friendship the same way as IRL friends... I guess it's not exactly the same; but for me, I think it's actually even better. Meeting face-to-face, it makes it really hard for me to actually talk about things; online, while I still have difficulties, I can talk much more freely and share my thoughts like I never could IRL... I've told several online friends about some things I've never brought up with most people I first met IRL... like my depression... I shared some of my thoughts and feelings about it a while ago and haven't been hiding it ever since... whereas I don't really want some IRL people to know. >_>;;
So um. I'm not sure why is face-to-face friendship seen as so much better. I'm not a very touch-y person anyway and meeting people with same interests as you can be really hard offline. Sure I'd love to actually hang out with my lovely friends offline, too, if that just was possible, whatwith most of them living in South-East Asia and Germany and Canada and so... .__.'' And even the Finnish sweeties live hours away, it's not a distance I can really cross very often. >: ...meetup coming up on 13.-15.4. uuhh I can hardly wait <33
Ummh. That got long. What else. I had two wisdom teeth pulled the day before, it's still kinda hurting but I'm managing. The other two gonna be gone in a few weeks too... It's part of a bigger thing that... I'm not really sure I want to talk about... It's kind of an issue I have with my looks >_>;; I'm sure some of you can deduce it from that already if you for some reason want to...
Slowly working on cosplays. I'm mostly trying to not think about them but I guess I should pick up the pace if I want to finish in time. Thinking of the Sophie cosplay especially brings up my body issues too though >_>;; I'm going to make the worst Sophie ever I'm so fat ;;;;;; Why don't I have the willpower to change that and start working out goddammit.
For some days now I haven't really been into playing anything... It's weird, usually I'm always wanting to play something... I've been reading Magi though, it's pretty great. I absolutely adore Sinbad haha... obsession levels are reaching dangerous amounts, I'm even calling him "husbando" occasionally and I've never done that before with a character @_@//// Mmm. I'm trying to ignore it but I'm really worried about the "Too Cool to Live" trope coming into effect on him... Possibly partly combined with "Mentor Occupational Hazard" seeing he's been kind of a role model for Alibaba. >__>;;; I mean he's got more Djinn, more experience, epic other fighting techniques, his kingdom is prosperous and the people love him, the generals are all also totally badass and respect him (well I guess they do, the Kou empire diplomatic hassle kind of put that under suspicion lol), he's an inspiring and charming leader (and gets all the chicks haha)... How is he not overshadowing Alibaba? I quote, "Clearly, this character is Made Of Cool. Equally clearly, this character, if he is not the Main Character, must die, because he overshadows the main character." Hmmh. I'm just really hoping Alibaba's coolness levels and Power of Friendship with Aladdin and Morgiana (and Hakuryuu??) are high enough to not put Sinbad in storytelling-point-of-view danger HAHA;;;
Wow I was going to write an update about my life but suddenly, SINBAD eh goes to show how obsessed I am. But he's so cool and awesome and inspiring and... sexy ///// *blush* umh. I mean he really is inspiring, on Monday I was having the most HORRIBLE morning, but reading a little Magi with him in it combined with a bunch of fan-art cheered me right up. >w< //// I can't remember most other stuff I like having that strong of an effect when I was feeling down. This guy is even... um... ///// What I mean is... if he was real I might even question my sexuality ////// omg I said it AAHHH
---SEE?! This guy has a ridiculously strong effect on me. I get all girly and mushy and squealing and D: D: Someone make it stoooppp I want to be manly
...eek school mate showed up. I don't think he cares to read my journal but some of the stuff I've just written is SO EMBARRASSING. --DKAJSBFKS he looked at my screen NO IT'S NOT A SCHOOL THING DON'T LOOK IT'S NOT INTERESTING uhhh
...I was going to keep this pretty emoticon-free but lookie, another goal unaccomplished. \o/ That's just too me I guess. Which brings me to a video chat I was in a few nights ago. It really made a difference, seeing the other people sitting there, especially when they reacted to something :DD And I met an interesting person through it, too. We don't really share the exact same interests (I'm really into JRPGs while she's more a manga person) but I liked her. >w<;; Now I'm thinking if I shouldn't bring up again the possibility of a video chat with Talesfags... The thought makes me so shy but it would probably turn out to be amazing, if the connection just works alright haha.
Blahblahblah how did I make a journal cut again...
..accidental journal cutting with emoticons. \o/ mmm Elisa's coming over today and I'm gonna watch her play Assassin's Creed 2. Which reminds me I need to text her that I did come to school today.
I think I ran out of shit to ramble about so I'll end it here. \o/ No wait I submitted a video interview last night, it was scary and I looked and sounded just HORRIBLE on it but. Now I'm waiting for if they inform me they won't take me, or just leave me hanging like most other places do. Exciting. Almost as exciting as waiting for that VPD package (Star Ocean The Last Hope, PS3 version) that was supposed to take "most likely" 2-4 days but has taken 11 and counting. They should inform me if it's going to take that much longer... I'm going to laugh if the Tales of Destiny 2 I ordered from Yesasia gets here faster, since I ordered it way later and it's coming from abroad.
Hmm go read Magi if you already haven't, it's great!