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[mini_van]

So at 10:15 this morning I received a phone call from a friend asking if I knew this kid. I didn't, and didn't know what she was talking about. She then went on that he committed suicide, and that he went to Shadle, and then that he hung out in the hall!?! Well I didn't know him, didn't know his face, never talked to him, and didn't know what to

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ha, no

[selaine]

no, you are definately not insensitive or bitter, lol... quite the opposite actually. you're normal. anyone who had never met this person or seen their face and actually weeped for them is a little too emotional. they're the type of person that is looking for attention from other people and somehow they figure if they are crying in a hallway full of people, they too will get sympathy. psychology calls it being emotionally regulated.
however, the fact that you weren't disturbed by the fact that this kid lived his life so hopelessly that he actually killed himself is a little odd. do you think that it's just life and it happens or do you feel anything about that fact?

Re: ha, no

[mini_van]

fisrt off, have we met? I actually am a very bitter person, but maybe not in this case. I'm not sure if I fully understand what you are asking, but to try and answer: Yes life happens, it is still unsaid as to if drugs were present when he killed himself, but as for the fact of him killing himself I really don't care, I didn't know him. Stalin wasn't completely correct for me, for one to be killed and it to be a tragedy, I'd have to know the person. There aren't many things that I get really emotional about. Sure I laugh at jokes, smile at meeting someone that I hadn't seen in a while, have fun, but I really just try to keep inward and outward emotion down, not depressing, but neutral. I can be affected by a friends sadness or happiness, but I wasn't phased by the act or the person themself (at least not in a typical way), though it seems I should've. The only thing that I can say about someone killing themselves is that there is a lesson to be learned, and not to get caught up on the act, but what needs to be taken so that I don't

Re: ha, no

[selaine]

um, to answer your first question, no we haven't met, i'm a friend of sam's. but it doesn't matter, i was bored and i saw your name on her list and remembered that you were the only nice one of the shadle group of people. and secondly, i still dont think you should have been emotional that day. it does happen all the time, and you really can't be expected to be depressed all the time because of that fact. i for one am sad that it happens all the time, but i haven't cried at any of my relatives dying either, so... i dont think crying is to be expected.

Re: ha, no

[mini_van]

I'm flattered that she says that, I take flak for trying to stay neutral about it. another one of my friends explained to me that it was silly for me to be emotional about it. I only feel like I should possibly be a bit more emotional because I've been told by people that I can be less than receptive and kind about other peoples' plights. So this was just one of those things of whether or not I was being unsympathetic or not. For myself I thought we all have problems and I feel that there is no reason to kill yourself, if I haven't already over mine. I try not to talk about my problems, and I end up being the receiver, commenter, and adviser to people about theirs because I come off as someone who has it together as I've again been told. Then I started to think and if you read some of my other posts that sound like the thoughts of a lunatic and a moron I feel that it is impossible for someone to have worse problems than anyone else, and it is really long and confusing to explain, but it is in there somewhere. people's issues interest