'cause love don't go away...
first, i'm sorry carlé for getting mad. i really am. i've been kind of moody lately but i shouldn't be making excuses for my idiotic actions. i'm really really really sorry!!!
so my sister's here. fun stuff. we go out a lot, except during that storm which blew out the power twice. i was talking to camille and my computer shut off so sorry camille!
so i've bought two books already this break from my ventures outside the house. one is the shakespeare stealer and the other is brave new world. i already finished the year of the hangman for book club. fantabulous book. great alternate history.
i'm still waiting for things. i can't believe another year is already ending and one is beginning. i'm slipping away from time. not to say i don't have enough time, it's just the time is no longer a major factor in my life. it's flashing before i get a chance to grasp it, to understand it. the events of this year are mere blurs in my head that i can't quite slow down enough to comtemplate on them. the only vivid images i have are of disappointments and failures. why my brain chooses to remember these times instead of better times, i really don't know why.
amongst all of this confusion, i'm starting to look forward to better times that may come. second semester of this year should kick some ass. i'm excited for the band competition first and foremost. running like crazy people with my some of my best friends in the world, away from school, away from our parents, away from our regular lives, that should be exciting. to all bishop band kids, we better win superior this year. it will be exeptionally awesome when we do. anyway, i'm also looking forward to the spring musical. this isn't exactly on top of my list because we might not have the production if radu can't or won't help. i pray he does. the extent of why i do is explained in my last post.
technically, these two events are at the top of my list but i didn't state it as so because nothing beats out God in anything. of course i'm talking about anaheim (which i have a meeting about tomorrow so i better make a note of that). anaheim last year was my best experience to date. going down early and spending time with my closest friends (carlé aside because she doesn't sing with the choir), talking about matt maher, knitting with all the girls, worshipping and singing with some of the most amazing voices i've ever heard in my life, nothing can beat that. i'm ecstatic about this year because i get to go down early again. yes oh yes! well anyway, the other event is the 20th anniversary of lifeteen. this i really want to go to but it's not certain if i can. it's all about the money issue on this one. my sister wants to go and is willing to come down and take me. however, the tickets and hotels are the problem. i wouldn't push the subject if i really didn't want to go. lifeteen is a big part of my life. it put things into harsh perspective. i never liked going to mass before then. i didn't like singing at mass until then. although it would take a few more years after that to actually go up and lead a congregation in singing. anyway, the point is lifeteen changed my life for the better. i believe i'm a better person for my beliefs, for my faith. i'm not saying lifeteen gave me faith, but it did encourage me to open up and share my faith. it allowed me to make the best friends i have. it opened me up and allowed me to live. i'm thankful for that and ergo i really want to go. on the plus side, matt maher's will be there so ha. once again, yes oh yes!
so, my short spiel turned into a very long post that i'm going to end. i'll end it with this however:
"so lead me past emotion 'cause they change with the wind..."
*i know i'm obsessed...
so my sister's here. fun stuff. we go out a lot, except during that storm which blew out the power twice. i was talking to camille and my computer shut off so sorry camille!
so i've bought two books already this break from my ventures outside the house. one is the shakespeare stealer and the other is brave new world. i already finished the year of the hangman for book club. fantabulous book. great alternate history.
i'm still waiting for things. i can't believe another year is already ending and one is beginning. i'm slipping away from time. not to say i don't have enough time, it's just the time is no longer a major factor in my life. it's flashing before i get a chance to grasp it, to understand it. the events of this year are mere blurs in my head that i can't quite slow down enough to comtemplate on them. the only vivid images i have are of disappointments and failures. why my brain chooses to remember these times instead of better times, i really don't know why.
amongst all of this confusion, i'm starting to look forward to better times that may come. second semester of this year should kick some ass. i'm excited for the band competition first and foremost. running like crazy people with my some of my best friends in the world, away from school, away from our parents, away from our regular lives, that should be exciting. to all bishop band kids, we better win superior this year. it will be exeptionally awesome when we do. anyway, i'm also looking forward to the spring musical. this isn't exactly on top of my list because we might not have the production if radu can't or won't help. i pray he does. the extent of why i do is explained in my last post.
technically, these two events are at the top of my list but i didn't state it as so because nothing beats out God in anything. of course i'm talking about anaheim (which i have a meeting about tomorrow so i better make a note of that). anaheim last year was my best experience to date. going down early and spending time with my closest friends (carlé aside because she doesn't sing with the choir), talking about matt maher, knitting with all the girls, worshipping and singing with some of the most amazing voices i've ever heard in my life, nothing can beat that. i'm ecstatic about this year because i get to go down early again. yes oh yes! well anyway, the other event is the 20th anniversary of lifeteen. this i really want to go to but it's not certain if i can. it's all about the money issue on this one. my sister wants to go and is willing to come down and take me. however, the tickets and hotels are the problem. i wouldn't push the subject if i really didn't want to go. lifeteen is a big part of my life. it put things into harsh perspective. i never liked going to mass before then. i didn't like singing at mass until then. although it would take a few more years after that to actually go up and lead a congregation in singing. anyway, the point is lifeteen changed my life for the better. i believe i'm a better person for my beliefs, for my faith. i'm not saying lifeteen gave me faith, but it did encourage me to open up and share my faith. it allowed me to make the best friends i have. it opened me up and allowed me to live. i'm thankful for that and ergo i really want to go. on the plus side, matt maher's will be there so ha. once again, yes oh yes!
so, my short spiel turned into a very long post that i'm going to end. i'll end it with this however:
"so lead me past emotion 'cause they change with the wind..."
*i know i'm obsessed...