Aug 05, 2003 10:14
Due to all the stress caused by the slow, delayed, and on-going process of "restructuring" at my corporate circus, I have not even had a chance to log in to my livejournal to write till now. Besides the sporadic sneak-reads of some other people's journals at work, work's been driving me like a mule after they laid off a significant amount of good people. It's not that I mind working long hours, but working under childish threats of losing your job from management is what I have a problem with.
Although people say I should be lucky to have survived the cuts, some part of me had hoped to be rid of my company's political BS. I was so ready to go I had started packing my shit from my office. I was both relieved (a little) and (massively)disappointed that I get to stay. I'm just gonna say I wouldn't be completely devastated if I lose this job; it would just suck not being paid.
Uncertainty and lack of stability at my job sort of stains other aspects of my life like dipping a tiny corner of a napkin into a cup of coffee. I am apprehensive about signing a year lease in SF because I don't want to be stuck with crazy rent w/out a job. So, the solution is to find another job, which is sparce if I want to be paid well like I am now. But I feel I am ready for possibly taking a pay cut in exchange for a more tolerable job.
On a more positive note, I am figuring out my Labor Day vacation. One and a half years on the grind and it's my first vacation since. Since it will be a 5 day (+ 2 vacation days) weekend, I am considering NYC, San Diego, or maybe even Miami. My friend's sis is working for ABC and they just hooked her up with a tight mid-Manhattan penthouse for three months-so hopefully we can go there. Vacations are fun, but free penthouse stay on a vacation can be even su-weeter.