i need serotonine! (serenity)
let me see...
wanna short test?
how r u today?
yea, i'm doing what i can not to learn, but sheet, i gotta learn & not play with html... i should b reading about blood pressure in the brain or sth ecually absorbing... hm, right here i have to produce some text so everyone (well, JJ only) may see that i did sth with this entry. I can write about ETBreceptors for endoteline. or maybe about what would happen with my blood pressure & heart rate when i cry all day long & get dehydrated. hm, this journal induces depression of my mood. definitely.
u happy?
congratulations, but please fuck off, we don't need happy peopl today
it's pointless, me still writin to him. what for r we still talking? nay... pointless.
"Duality"
I push my fingers into my eyes...
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache...
But it's made of all the things I have to take...
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside...
If the pain goes on...
Aaaaaaaah!
I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited as my time's elapsed
Now, All I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact:
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice
I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!
Put me back together
Or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the Pieces, then you can leave me
alone
Tell me the reality is better than the dream
But I found out the hard way,
Nothing is what it seems!
I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!
All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane!
All I've got...all I've got is insane!
I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!
u feel ok?
get lost...
try once again?
i push my fingers... i'm not gonna make it.
ha, ha, ha, ha.
u feel quite bad?
u should b happy about it...
try once again?
yea, this would b the end... the entry isn't clear prolly... but i feel remorse when i sit too long in front of the comp, i shouldn't b learning html, i should b learning physiology, hm, maybe i should have chosen some computer studies...