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so yesterday i received my soccer workout for the summer and i want to dig a hole and hide in it and never come out. marsh's conditioning was totally cake compared to this and hopefully i wont die doing it. besides receiving my workout schedual i found out when im leaving for college. August 19th i will be gone out of Elyria! This also means i will be home for my b-day. That kind of upsets me since i dont want to celebrate with my parents since my mom always starts a fight with me and she ruins the whole day. So hopefully I can spend a day with my friends and I could actually have a good day and then be able to say my goodbyes.
On top of receiving my college stuff I came across a letter from one of the scholarships I did. I didn't receive anything but I did get an offer to publish the poem I had to write for the scholarship. I guess they choose the best poems out of all the entries and they publish them in a book. Well my mom won’t let me publish my poem. She came up with some bull shit reason on why I can’t do it. Anything I create such as my art work or this poem im not allowed to publish or give away. She thinks that she owns everything I create. Like I wanted to give my coach one of my art projects and she went totally psycho and won’t let me give it to him. Seriously if I can’t allow ppl to enjoy things I do I might as well destroy everything.
Im done for now