another day
I don't feel any better today than I have since the er screwed me. I had a long talk with my love the other night. I had no desire to be as honest as I was but I owed him the truth. I wish that I could take away his pain, to say something to make it better, but there is nothing. All I can do is try to be a better person than I am. Not an easy task, old habbits die hard. These past days have not been the easist for me, my love has shadows that I created, and I have the darkness that is trying harder and harder every day. The cold comes without my permission, and over stays its welcome and calls to me in the night. An old friend comes with it, one that I can no longer afford to trust. A struggle with every day and the pain just makes the challange that much harder. Smile and nod... Hit the ground running... Just one thing at a time... Remeber to live in the moment... I'll cross that bridge when I get to it... Those sayings, thoughts, ideas, only get me so far... Lets see how well I do.