writing 2013
So writing today was.... interesting. Today in general was interesting due to the double critique I was subject to today. But writing... writing has me thrown for a loop. I'm still a little stuck by the whole experience. I presented my Larry vs. like I've done before. (though this was a new one) Basically it started out normal with everyone talking about how they loved Larry, how he's such an interesting character, how the narrator is a great voice and character (thanks! glad to know I'm fun to listen to.) stuff like that. How different classmates said "We all know a Larry, or are a Larry." But when it got to my teacher she said,
"All the tonal complexities you have in your story are really interesting. Such as why does this character who has a great sarcastic voice use humor as such as defense against emotions. Why does this narrator hide behind humor and use the humor to avoid the emotions such as sadness, annoyance, and all those other emotions."
The reason what she said really bothered me was because it was so true. If the narrator is me which she is. Then how does she know that I use humor as a defense? How did she know all that about me? It just hit way to close to comfort. When I told the class that Larry is my step father and how he knows what I write about him and enjoys it. Despite the fact that I slander his character (according to him) My teacher then response with "See there's so much love and trust just in that one sentence which only adds to the emotional complexities you've created." Seriously....still shaken.
It makes me question if somehow I've written all these stories that hide my true feelings that people can see them so clearly on the page. I mean no one has ever mentioned that to me. But maybe there are people out there who just know.... It makes me.... scared? I'm not sure. But I feel uneasy that's for sure....