Hopefully
Going to Koko's to have dinner and a short yoga session. Breathe in the calm, breathe out the conflict. Sometimes I feel like everything's getting way out of control. I need more nights like tonight will be- serenity. If I can't be alone physically, at least I can be alone with someone who gives me space and doesn't dump on me all the time.
My mother just came home. I could tell it was her the moment she walked in. The negative energy was unreal. I couldn't imagine trying to function with that much anger. It makes me want to cry for her. As aggravated as I get with her, I really just feel sorry for her most of the time. She truly has no clue what she wants to do and she feels like she's stuck where she is in life. But sooner or later she's got to realize that instead of trying to pull everyone down with her, she might be better off letting those around her try to bring her up. And that while yes, some things that are bringing her down are of her own making, not all of it is. But I think she's getting those two categories confused.
***Later***
I don't want to post a new entry just for this but... I think I have a new yoga partner. Now if I can just get Ami on board to once a week at Koko's (with her permission of course!) then that would be even more awesome! Also- I heart the sound of rain. *sigh*
My mother just came home. I could tell it was her the moment she walked in. The negative energy was unreal. I couldn't imagine trying to function with that much anger. It makes me want to cry for her. As aggravated as I get with her, I really just feel sorry for her most of the time. She truly has no clue what she wants to do and she feels like she's stuck where she is in life. But sooner or later she's got to realize that instead of trying to pull everyone down with her, she might be better off letting those around her try to bring her up. And that while yes, some things that are bringing her down are of her own making, not all of it is. But I think she's getting those two categories confused.
***Later***
I don't want to post a new entry just for this but... I think I have a new yoga partner. Now if I can just get Ami on board to once a week at Koko's (with her permission of course!) then that would be even more awesome! Also- I heart the sound of rain. *sigh*