Michiru attempts to catch up to LJ.

[miluda]

It's 6:34AM and I'm supposed to be sleeping.

I just can't find myself in bed. I can't find myself to sleep.

I have an exam in some number of hours, and I'm not sleeping.

My friends list updates so fast, and since I don't check it as often as I used to, there's probably been a lot that I've been missing out on. That kind of makes me feel bad, because... so many people feel that if you care about them, you'd read their entries and comment about how you care about them. I just hope people still do feel that I care... even if they don't it's not something I can really control.

I've been missing out on so many things.

There are some things that I am happy about. That's fine.

But there are some things that I am not happy about. It's been a strange conflict of ups and downs... and I wonder when it'll stop.

Then I think about how it's been up and down for a while. It's nice that I can feel both happiness and sadness. I think that's what makes me human.

Even if I keep acting like an android... I can't continue keeping this feeling only inside my heart. I'll continue, just for now.

I still love all of you, though. It never changed.