[OOC: You know when your life sucks.
Sometimes to remind you just how much your life sucks,
they throw in a festival.
But instead of getting a nifty, neat episodic conclusion, Marian found The Door. Which meant returning to work in the House of Arch for Little Lady Ingress. Which ended of course, naturally and normally. But almost produced a
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"Hey-o," she says, smiling.
Chances are good her mother is around somewhere.
One hopes.
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Like the one that is seemingly innocent, and terribly insidious, such as their cute little half-learned speech, which moves tiny fluffy almost pillowy cheeks.
And causing people to smile, who'd thought minutes ago they might not.
"Hi, there," Marian said, leaning down from the seat. "Aren't you a little young for having the run of a bar?"
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"Tea?" she adds, hopefully.
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Marian laughed, even though she felt it impossible as it happened.
"I do have tea, if you would like some," she offered, holding out her arms to help the girl get closer to the table. "And would I be correct in assuming, you must be the ever much older little Susan belonging to miss Amy, then?"
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"Pease," she says. "Tea."
She doesn't know the word Amy, unfortunately. Just Mama.
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"Do you need help or can you drink it by yourself?"
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She needs help. Amy usually lets her drink out of a spoon.
"Oh, Marian, thank God you found her," says Amy, arriving.
"Susan, you are not supposed to wander off."
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"Teeeeaaaaaaa," says Susan, happily.
"How are you this evening?"
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Small, dark haired, possible tea drinking, possible rough and tumble, or sweet intelligent...children.
Blinking, as she looked up, she answer, honestly if a little evasively. "It's been a very, very long day."
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"Is it . . . is it anything you'd like to talk about?"
Merry is asleep in his basket, Susan is happy with her tea, and Amy is completely at Marian's disposal, if she'd like.
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This had not stopped her wanting children. Absently. One day. In the future. When she married.
....but it had never quite settled as a possibility of the now in her life until that moment.
Marian sighed, partly, looking at Amy for a moment.
"It's really rather a large everything."
Then, a moment later--because it was Amy. Which was in some ways different because of some of things they had in common.
"A large everything that I just put back to quiet together after it fell apart on Tom about, even."
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Tried to find words.
For John being chained and for Guy at her bedside reading while she was ill and for the all people who might die very very soon.
But she looked down, and was distracted not entirely surprisingly by someone tiny and shiny and simple.
"What's it like to have children? I mean more than what it just looks like to watch people who do have them?"
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"It's . . . it's the most wonderful and terrifying thing in my life. It's knowing a piece of you is completely out of your control, and yet having the opportunity and the blessing to love and to guide and to matter so deeply to these sweet, dear little souls. It's such utter joy, it's awesome and frightening and there is nothing you could do or say or offer me or threaten me with that would matter more Susan and Merry. They're the center of my life. And such pure love."
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Beat.
Without the realization of changed tense on her part.
"And what if I don't do it right? I didn't have a mother for a great part of my life."
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