Some Stuff and Updates for April
Thanks everyone who commented kindly on my last entry. It's difficult for me sometimes to speak honestly, especially when angry, but I feel in all places, this journal should be where I can do it most freely.
The next day Simon sincerely apologized, he knows how he acts isn't ok. Honestly it really reminds me of myself a bit before I did the therapy and learned more about controlling my emotions. While his stuff is excessive worry, mine was excessive anger. Back in the day that argument would've made me have a full blown freak out, but I was mainly just upset and barely raised my voice.
We went to the Uhaul place and decided to book two shipping boxes. We are going to rent a truck and pack up our stuff, and then fill them at the Uhaul place in the boxes. This will be August 24th. Then we will likely hit the road either the 25th or the 26th depending on how tired we are. It feels like it is coming up very fast. My mom is leaving for PEI in less than a month now.
But yes, I think getting our moving plans sorted has taken a big load off both our minds, but especially Simon. We need to start going through stuff to donate/sell/throw away. I am not looking forward to that part...
Yesterday I went to Toronto and took my dad to a Blue Jays game. His favourite team is the New York Yankees so they were facing each other. The Yankees beat the Jays, but I forgot the Leafs were also playing, and it's the playoffs. They won their first game and downtown was going insane. I'm telling you guys... if they ever win the Stanley Cup again (last time was in the 60s), Toronto is getting trashed. Probably worse than any other city in North America. Leaf fans are ridiculous, so yeah. It was a good atmosphere though, luckily no one being too idiotic. Kind of made me miss my hometown.
So there's something definitely going on with my uterus or something. I'm late again for my period and again my right breast is very sore, but the left one isn't. I'm going to get another pregnancy test tomorrow. I'm 99.9% certain I'm not pregnant, but just to be 100% sure. I booked an appointment with my Dr, but he's currently on vacation and I won't be able to see him until the end of May. I am pretty positive this is perimenopause. I have a lot of the other symptoms, but the lack of period is a big one for me. I have always had a decently regular period up until basically this year... so yeah. Yay being a woman.
Here's some updates on the New Year's Goals:
-Complete my MGOT (Melissa's Goodbye Ontario Tour) aka go to places in Ontario/Guelph/Toronto I wanted to go to but never did (I have them listed in a notebook).
It wasn't really on the list, but went to a Drag Show with my friend Tasha this month which was fun. I hadn't been to one since 2019, so it was good times!
Read 20 books
7 books read so far, ahead of schedule!
Continue my weight loss journey/health journey. Complete two more walking Challenges
I feel like I am gaining weight in my torso area, which wasn't where I normally gain (I'm mostly an ass/thigh girl weight gain), which also leads me to believe my hormones are out of whack. I don't want to weigh myself right now because I feel shitty about stuff, but I'm really trying to look at my body from a neutrality point and not a positive/negative outlook because I don't like either one of those mindsets. I'd love to just not care about my body at all one day. Walking Challenge is still ongoing, I'm a bit behind, but I think I can catch up.
Get my driver's license
Nothing to report here.
Travel if it is safe internationally
Nothing on the docket.
Practice witchcraft more
Still reading/making notes for tarot research. Performed one spell this month and wrote it down. Celebrated Beltane by making honey cakes.
Move successfully to PEI
Finally booked our Uhaul boxes and picked a date we are moving out (August 24th will pack up, so likely leaving around the 25th or 26th).
Work seriously on my novel
I actually wrote a couple pages this month, but not nearly enough. I hope I can do better in May.
Look into meditation
I ended up using my meditation app after our big fight on the weekend and it helped a lot.
Learn more French
Still doing it, trying to get my streak again. I find I'm remembering more phrases now which is really cool.
Work on completing my travel magnet collection
I ordered a Cambodia magnet, but it takes forever to come because I think the place I get them off of on Amazon is based in Greece.
Writing Prompts
May
1. Best thing that happened today?
I didn't work because it's Tuesday.
2. Would you ever get someone’s name tattooed on you?
Absolutely not. I don't have any tattoos at all lol.
3. What was the first thing you ate today?
Bowl of honey nut Cheerios
The next day Simon sincerely apologized, he knows how he acts isn't ok. Honestly it really reminds me of myself a bit before I did the therapy and learned more about controlling my emotions. While his stuff is excessive worry, mine was excessive anger. Back in the day that argument would've made me have a full blown freak out, but I was mainly just upset and barely raised my voice.
We went to the Uhaul place and decided to book two shipping boxes. We are going to rent a truck and pack up our stuff, and then fill them at the Uhaul place in the boxes. This will be August 24th. Then we will likely hit the road either the 25th or the 26th depending on how tired we are. It feels like it is coming up very fast. My mom is leaving for PEI in less than a month now.
But yes, I think getting our moving plans sorted has taken a big load off both our minds, but especially Simon. We need to start going through stuff to donate/sell/throw away. I am not looking forward to that part...
Yesterday I went to Toronto and took my dad to a Blue Jays game. His favourite team is the New York Yankees so they were facing each other. The Yankees beat the Jays, but I forgot the Leafs were also playing, and it's the playoffs. They won their first game and downtown was going insane. I'm telling you guys... if they ever win the Stanley Cup again (last time was in the 60s), Toronto is getting trashed. Probably worse than any other city in North America. Leaf fans are ridiculous, so yeah. It was a good atmosphere though, luckily no one being too idiotic. Kind of made me miss my hometown.
So there's something definitely going on with my uterus or something. I'm late again for my period and again my right breast is very sore, but the left one isn't. I'm going to get another pregnancy test tomorrow. I'm 99.9% certain I'm not pregnant, but just to be 100% sure. I booked an appointment with my Dr, but he's currently on vacation and I won't be able to see him until the end of May. I am pretty positive this is perimenopause. I have a lot of the other symptoms, but the lack of period is a big one for me. I have always had a decently regular period up until basically this year... so yeah. Yay being a woman.
Here's some updates on the New Year's Goals:
-Complete my MGOT (Melissa's Goodbye Ontario Tour) aka go to places in Ontario/Guelph/Toronto I wanted to go to but never did (I have them listed in a notebook).
It wasn't really on the list, but went to a Drag Show with my friend Tasha this month which was fun. I hadn't been to one since 2019, so it was good times!
Read 20 books
7 books read so far, ahead of schedule!
Continue my weight loss journey/health journey. Complete two more walking Challenges
I feel like I am gaining weight in my torso area, which wasn't where I normally gain (I'm mostly an ass/thigh girl weight gain), which also leads me to believe my hormones are out of whack. I don't want to weigh myself right now because I feel shitty about stuff, but I'm really trying to look at my body from a neutrality point and not a positive/negative outlook because I don't like either one of those mindsets. I'd love to just not care about my body at all one day. Walking Challenge is still ongoing, I'm a bit behind, but I think I can catch up.
Get my driver's license
Nothing to report here.
Travel if it is safe internationally
Nothing on the docket.
Practice witchcraft more
Still reading/making notes for tarot research. Performed one spell this month and wrote it down. Celebrated Beltane by making honey cakes.
Move successfully to PEI
Finally booked our Uhaul boxes and picked a date we are moving out (August 24th will pack up, so likely leaving around the 25th or 26th).
Work seriously on my novel
I actually wrote a couple pages this month, but not nearly enough. I hope I can do better in May.
Look into meditation
I ended up using my meditation app after our big fight on the weekend and it helped a lot.
Learn more French
Still doing it, trying to get my streak again. I find I'm remembering more phrases now which is really cool.
Work on completing my travel magnet collection
I ordered a Cambodia magnet, but it takes forever to come because I think the place I get them off of on Amazon is based in Greece.
Writing Prompts
May
1. Best thing that happened today?
I didn't work because it's Tuesday.
2. Would you ever get someone’s name tattooed on you?
Absolutely not. I don't have any tattoos at all lol.
3. What was the first thing you ate today?
Bowl of honey nut Cheerios