after the break up....
its 2:28 pm already... i had a chitchat with the exboyfriend... i dont know whats wrong... but if you actually see the picture... everything is wrong... he texted me around 1:00am telling me that his friend was simply tripping on me... it hurts but i dont know... what did i do to desrve being treated like this? what did i do to deserve such torture? i dont think i was mean or bad to him and his friends... i was sooo nice to them... but then now... theyre treating me like shit... i dont know... maybe am just too nice that this has to happen to me... =( it hurts a lot... it really does...
*badtrip naman lj... hindi pwede multiple posts in a day... kelangan once a day lang talaga... grrrr... nu ba toh... nawawala yung moment ko eh...
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12:20am...
a while ago... well, actually... a couple of hours ago... i recieved a text from my boyfriend's phone saying the guys name is jc and he's the real boyfriend of my boyfriend... seems like my boyfriend and his ex got back togather just today...
it hurts a lot knowing i do love him... well, i think i do... but then... maybe i was just his last big fuck before the classes start... maybe it really wasnt meant to be...
we became together in a flash... and after a while... it ended... its was one of those one-two week summer flings... i thought it was real... and i thought it was him... but then maybe... its really not meant to be... its not worth fighting for...
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i told myself that the next relationship i enter would be the last... its going to be the one and only relationship that am gunna do all my best to make it work... he's from dasma cavite... i went all the way there just to proove to him am not playing around... i never did trust him... mabe thats the reason why... but i dont know... am sooo confused... is it worth saving or not? i told my folks to rush the new house in tagaytay so i could move there... a far quiet place where its just me... where i could go to my boyfriend anytime i wanted because its near... i even told my folks that i'll take up another course at lasallae dasma just to be with him... i almost gave up leaving for the states just for him... i almost gave up a better future of studying in the states just for him... i was ready to make sacrifices just to be with him... because i thought it was real...
today... he texted me if i wnted to cool off... and i told him no... that no matter what happens... i'll stick with him... i told him i wownt stand against his studies coz i know his priorities... but seems that it really wasnt the reson why he wanted to cool off with me... seems like he really wanted to break up with me just because he wanted to get back with his boyfriend... it hurt a lot... but i dont know... after talking to a couple of friends... i just feel stupid...
*kimmie* > a slut will always be a slut... no matter what...
*paolo* > the first month should be full of love and sweetness... yours is like plain... and emotionless... its nothing... yar guy's playing you...
*franco* > mayn! yar guy's an asshole! (we were talking while jc "the ex" texted me that he's the boyfriend)
*henryboi* > thats okay... no need to save it... it was all a lie... he has another guy... its not you... he played you... he's not that into you... am sorry but its for real... dont go "moment" with me... you need to do a reality check! get a grip, yar not the innocent type. MOVE ON.
*eds* > ay ncoh! bakla ka! kakagusto ka sa lalaki imoral!
*gagay* > toh naman, papaniwala ka agad sa sweetness ng lalakeng yun... wala pa ata kayong 2 weeks magkakilala kayo na agad? sa downelink mo pa nakuha yang guy na yan ah! di ka na nasanay sa downelink... lahat yan sex lang ang hanap nuh!!! papaniwala ka sa mga sinasabi nyan...
*aron* > sweetie, he's just one of em guys... dont mind him... there are a million and one fishes in the sea... thats what you always tell me right?
*jex* > and i thought you were gunna be mine? why do you have to tell me that you have a boyfriend while am courting you? shouldnt you be ashamed of what you did? its your fault... karma comes back twice... you shouldve told me from the very begginin... but then who gives a shit? give yourself to me and i'll take care of you...
*richard* > baby... its okay... dont be sad... he's an idiot for doing that to you...
*ryan* > you played me... thats what ya get for playing me...
*rich* > i think yar some stupid moron... not gating a guy? not talking that much? ending up in bed? then what? he leaves you? od am so laughin hard right now...
_-_-_ and i had to ask my friends bout what they think huh? well... some ex's, a guy who's courtin me... and friends... why do i have to ask them? _-_-_
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as i keep on whining bout what he did to me... it feels as if i hate the world... henryboi... your right... am sooo hating the whole world right now... but then i know i'll get a grip of this... i know everything will work out in the future... i know god has glorious plans for me... i know everythings goin to be alright in the future... i just hope.
*badtrip naman lj... hindi pwede multiple posts in a day... kelangan once a day lang talaga... grrrr... nu ba toh... nawawala yung moment ko eh...
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12:20am...
a while ago... well, actually... a couple of hours ago... i recieved a text from my boyfriend's phone saying the guys name is jc and he's the real boyfriend of my boyfriend... seems like my boyfriend and his ex got back togather just today...
it hurts a lot knowing i do love him... well, i think i do... but then... maybe i was just his last big fuck before the classes start... maybe it really wasnt meant to be...
we became together in a flash... and after a while... it ended... its was one of those one-two week summer flings... i thought it was real... and i thought it was him... but then maybe... its really not meant to be... its not worth fighting for...
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i told myself that the next relationship i enter would be the last... its going to be the one and only relationship that am gunna do all my best to make it work... he's from dasma cavite... i went all the way there just to proove to him am not playing around... i never did trust him... mabe thats the reason why... but i dont know... am sooo confused... is it worth saving or not? i told my folks to rush the new house in tagaytay so i could move there... a far quiet place where its just me... where i could go to my boyfriend anytime i wanted because its near... i even told my folks that i'll take up another course at lasallae dasma just to be with him... i almost gave up leaving for the states just for him... i almost gave up a better future of studying in the states just for him... i was ready to make sacrifices just to be with him... because i thought it was real...
today... he texted me if i wnted to cool off... and i told him no... that no matter what happens... i'll stick with him... i told him i wownt stand against his studies coz i know his priorities... but seems that it really wasnt the reson why he wanted to cool off with me... seems like he really wanted to break up with me just because he wanted to get back with his boyfriend... it hurt a lot... but i dont know... after talking to a couple of friends... i just feel stupid...
*kimmie* > a slut will always be a slut... no matter what...
*paolo* > the first month should be full of love and sweetness... yours is like plain... and emotionless... its nothing... yar guy's playing you...
*franco* > mayn! yar guy's an asshole! (we were talking while jc "the ex" texted me that he's the boyfriend)
*henryboi* > thats okay... no need to save it... it was all a lie... he has another guy... its not you... he played you... he's not that into you... am sorry but its for real... dont go "moment" with me... you need to do a reality check! get a grip, yar not the innocent type. MOVE ON.
*eds* > ay ncoh! bakla ka! kakagusto ka sa lalaki imoral!
*gagay* > toh naman, papaniwala ka agad sa sweetness ng lalakeng yun... wala pa ata kayong 2 weeks magkakilala kayo na agad? sa downelink mo pa nakuha yang guy na yan ah! di ka na nasanay sa downelink... lahat yan sex lang ang hanap nuh!!! papaniwala ka sa mga sinasabi nyan...
*aron* > sweetie, he's just one of em guys... dont mind him... there are a million and one fishes in the sea... thats what you always tell me right?
*jex* > and i thought you were gunna be mine? why do you have to tell me that you have a boyfriend while am courting you? shouldnt you be ashamed of what you did? its your fault... karma comes back twice... you shouldve told me from the very begginin... but then who gives a shit? give yourself to me and i'll take care of you...
*richard* > baby... its okay... dont be sad... he's an idiot for doing that to you...
*ryan* > you played me... thats what ya get for playing me...
*rich* > i think yar some stupid moron... not gating a guy? not talking that much? ending up in bed? then what? he leaves you? od am so laughin hard right now...
_-_-_ and i had to ask my friends bout what they think huh? well... some ex's, a guy who's courtin me... and friends... why do i have to ask them? _-_-_
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as i keep on whining bout what he did to me... it feels as if i hate the world... henryboi... your right... am sooo hating the whole world right now... but then i know i'll get a grip of this... i know everything will work out in the future... i know god has glorious plans for me... i know everythings goin to be alright in the future... i just hope.