I Can't Move
Yesterday was kind of an overwhelming day.
I found out that one of my roommates next year canceled her housing assignment and the three of us now have a new roommate from France who is a senior. And yet, our previous roommate didn't mention any of this to us, we just randomly saw it on the school's website. I'm just hoping that everything's alright. But meanwhile...that kind of changes our plans for next year.
Yesterday I also had my first real talk with my step-mom (after ten years of knowing her). I called her to ask a question about health insurance, and she asked me if my dad had told me any of what was going on. I said no and she told me (FINALLY someone just comes out and says it) that they're in the middle of getting a divorce. She said she didn't want to go around my dad and talk to me about stuff like that and that she knew he's trying hard to keep in touch with me (WHAT??). I told her that she really doesn't need to worry about coming between my dad and me because he hasn't called me at all this summer and I just really appreciate being informed.
We talked for a while. I asked how my brother and sister are taking it. She said that my sister's very perceptive and she just knows that my dad doesn't treat *Rhonda* right and they just don't get along. But Rhonda also told me that my brother definitely feels rejected by my dad. I asked if she is planning on having them see somebody and she said that she had thought about it, but that my dad is very against that. I told her that, in my opinion, it was a great thing to do not only because I strongly believe in it but also because my dad's obviously not doing anything to solve the problem and they could probably really benefit from talking to someone who is uninvolved. I want to try to have the kids come sleep over sometimes in my dorm next year. I don't know if they're old enough to understand it yet, but I want to try and show them or tell them that the way my dad is has nothing to do with them.
So everything feels a little heavy right now. No wonder I'm not in the mood to date. But there are bright sides. When I opened my iTunes, the song that I wanted played on random. I'm seeing one of my cousins on Saturday and the rest of them on Tuesday (I LOVE my cousins).
I think now I'm going to spend some quality time with my new bed.
I found out that one of my roommates next year canceled her housing assignment and the three of us now have a new roommate from France who is a senior. And yet, our previous roommate didn't mention any of this to us, we just randomly saw it on the school's website. I'm just hoping that everything's alright. But meanwhile...that kind of changes our plans for next year.
Yesterday I also had my first real talk with my step-mom (after ten years of knowing her). I called her to ask a question about health insurance, and she asked me if my dad had told me any of what was going on. I said no and she told me (FINALLY someone just comes out and says it) that they're in the middle of getting a divorce. She said she didn't want to go around my dad and talk to me about stuff like that and that she knew he's trying hard to keep in touch with me (WHAT??). I told her that she really doesn't need to worry about coming between my dad and me because he hasn't called me at all this summer and I just really appreciate being informed.
We talked for a while. I asked how my brother and sister are taking it. She said that my sister's very perceptive and she just knows that my dad doesn't treat *Rhonda* right and they just don't get along. But Rhonda also told me that my brother definitely feels rejected by my dad. I asked if she is planning on having them see somebody and she said that she had thought about it, but that my dad is very against that. I told her that, in my opinion, it was a great thing to do not only because I strongly believe in it but also because my dad's obviously not doing anything to solve the problem and they could probably really benefit from talking to someone who is uninvolved. I want to try to have the kids come sleep over sometimes in my dorm next year. I don't know if they're old enough to understand it yet, but I want to try and show them or tell them that the way my dad is has nothing to do with them.
So everything feels a little heavy right now. No wonder I'm not in the mood to date. But there are bright sides. When I opened my iTunes, the song that I wanted played on random. I'm seeing one of my cousins on Saturday and the rest of them on Tuesday (I LOVE my cousins).
I think now I'm going to spend some quality time with my new bed.