So life goes back to the way it was...
Life for me is back to how it was at the start of this year.
Just with a few different things.
I have no boyfriend.
No mum.
No job.
No school really.
Back to my normal friends.
Back into the band again - fully.
Just all back to normal...
Except:
I have been there with Ben...
But look what happened.
Mum still isn't here.
Although she's trying... It's just not the same.
No job...
Well Avon put me in debt.
Supre' is crap.
Im quitting.
School...
Well, I havn't been so far this term and I have half a term left.
My friends - they have come and gone.
The true ones are still here though.
and the band...
That's just going the best and we're moving places.
With or with out the others.
Lately life has been trying to hold me back, pull me down but this time I was ready.
I have my feet fully into the ground this time.
I love God so much.
More than ever.
He's fixing everything in my life...
Slowly but surely.
My ...ex... boyfriend will come round... hopefully.. :C
Mum's being here for me a little bit more and helping me out.
I have another job possibility on the way with 3 other high chances...
School's nearly over... sadly but yay...
My friends - I know the one's that are definatly here for me.
I love you guys lots.
Have always been here for me and always will.
And band it's just perfect.
I love my life.
Although lately I have been down in the dumps.
Not attending school because I couldn't face Ben...
And still haven't seen him since...
But apart from all that crap life seems to be the best.
I can't wait for Parachute.
It truely will be the next level up in my relationship with God.
And I can't wait.
:D
xXx's & oOo's to all :)
Here's a song that I just want to share...
I guess I could say it's for Ben...
DELTA GOODREM - Lost Without You
I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone I admit that I was wrong
All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm
lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you
How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I'm not too proud to say
All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm
lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you
If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face
Oh
All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm
lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you
(sorry this a really long entry!)