Seeking advice from friends...
Hello all, first of all I would love if a) you could all read this, to least give me some advice as to your opinions on matters and b) express your own opinion and experience.
Very confused at the moment, extremely lost and I suppose I just need some peoples thoughts to help in my mixed up mind.
I had a great night with Dalfox, dimuthien, nikita_wolf, foxymalone and mistystriker at a few of ( Read more... )
Very confused at the moment, extremely lost and I suppose I just need some peoples thoughts to help in my mixed up mind.
I had a great night with Dalfox, dimuthien, nikita_wolf, foxymalone and mistystriker at a few of ( Read more... )
Like you said, the fantasy of it is good. Its dark, the musics pumping, its electric, its physical, you just -want- to do those things. But then again its kind of like watching an x-rated movie. Your never going to run into a situation where you order a pizza and its delivered by some ultra-hot gayboy who was running late and offers to 'make it up to you' so you dont call his boss or something *smirk* Often in life we find that fantasy and reality are MCUH different.
The way I look at it most of those environments lead to two things. Useless sex (hey sometimes we need just meaningless sex but.. with a -stranger-? nono) or drugs. We've talked in the past of my opinion on both of these things but just to remind you. I...hate...drugs. Now thi scomming from an occasional smoker and somoene who wont turn a drink down when he's out with friends but Im not talking those drugs and you know it. The last time you posted a long post about this very thing about how you wanted to go to the city, how you wanted to have this live, Ill be honest I was scared, owrried, maybe a little dissapointed but now I can see that you have your heart in the right place. You want all the glitz and glamour without the nasty underbelly that the club life has. Unfortunatly Ive been unable to find it so I just stay away from it.
Am I saying dont have fun and party? No. Im just reaffirming what you found out yourself. Go out, have a good time, but just dont go out thre lookign for some mild altering experiance. The best change you have of finding a mind altering experiance in the club world, -especially- the rave club world, is something pharmacutical. And you are better than that...you KNOW better than that... or Ill come out to Australia and kick your ass in ways you ownt like *smiles sweetly*
Anyway, I just want to see you have fun, and I wnat to see you happy. I think you DO want somewhere in between, someone that will love you and cherish you like their greatest posession and best friend but smeone that will also look at you the wya those guys look at you. Like they wanted to come over, shove you against a wall and make dirty, nasty.... ok Im goign to stop. You get the point *lol* There is inbetween, you can mix lust and love. But you have to have both of them to mix it, You cant get it from 2 seperate places. And one cant come before the other, but there can be a nice steamy mix of both. Perhaps what you're realizing isnt that your a selfish person but tht maybe you just havent found what it is you wanted yet. *s* I dont know if any of this helped but for what its worth I felt enough to leave this (long long long, as alwyas, do I ever shutup?) post...and Im running late for work. Ciao.
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