*Whisker Twitch*
Hello all, yes I am still alive and what appears to be still ottery. Its been far too long since I posted an entry and how my life has been it'd be stupid of me not to least give out the goss on how life is for the webbed paw wonder.
Dont even know where to begin, seems so long, guess start at the big things, work through them. I have finally moved out of my home, the country prison to which for some reason people have been telling me they were jealous of my past living conditions. Fact is you cant take the city out of the otter, and living between two macadamia farms was driving me nuts... gawd the pun... I was glad to see the family was supportive, possibly because it meant I was out of their lives in the physical part. Though I never found myself scared, or fearful it wouldn't work out, guess the confidence in knowing I could take what I was given and dish it back in the city kept me feeling melancholy. Once getting up though I felt myself slip into the crowd like a jigsaw piece, occasionally I would get beaten, pushed into places I dont fit and cut to make sure I fit, but then again life forces you into many things you deal with.
Now that I am up here, in an apartment with my dragon (come to it later) and a snow kitty, I'm finally feeling the sense of freedom and with the opportunities galore in the city, an ability to take on what I wanted. As everyone has when they leave, finances are tight, but its quick to learn if you dont balance your account, you dont eat for the following week heh heh. Having to look for a job isn't strong either, many places are getting in-fluxed with people so they can be very choosy on their choice but with all that said and done, things here are slowly working out living wise, just having to rebuild my broken bed and my computer area more comfortably and my room will be to what I would like.
Then it comes to who is in my bed at this moment snoring like a chaff-cutter. Flamedrake the dragon and I are together, seeming to take things slow as me moving here has me more focused on surviving then being in a relationship, but with things settling, we can work things through more and we learn alot more with each other certainly living together. Its something I never saw coming, I guess I should have, we kinda struck a chord positively when we first chatted, but I never saw it to be where it was today, but then why should life have to go how I planned it, gotta have surprises in the soap-opera world of the otter. I'm not a huge gushy person, seems over the years from past boyfriends and relationships my romantic aspiration to make the other the angel they were to me has dwindled. Its neither ones fault, distance, lack of common grounds, couldn't wait any longer and seeing it deteriorate. So when it comes to blurbing the whole dictionary of sucky lovey dovey things that I feel for Drake, I think when he is in my arms he is safe, and loved, cant see what words could describe that sensation.
Out of the things thats happened, those few are certainly the most important. Its easy for someone to see where I am now just from that, I have an apartment, partner, and looking for a job, how thrilling.
Though how am I feeling right now.. Its difficult to say, with coming up here I came up on the idea of my dreams being full-filled quickly, that was a sore mistake to realise my dreams are going to take far longer then I hoped. Many know I wish to travel, to see the world, or at least America, I know far too many friends there that have really -really- kept me smiling in times of need. They all know it, so you all can get an extra inch swelled heads from knowing you've made me incredibly happy just being friends, even through text. Another is my social being.. I've been going through my head as to what am I? Am I a party goer? A raver? A gaming LAN obsessor? I want them all, but some here I just cant do with the friends I have, its just tastes, and again thats what makes us all unique.
I think lately, my needs aren't being met so they're becomming more hungry, demanding to be exposed and shown. I would like to be a party goer, wake up with hangovers, amazing stories of 'WTF night was that' and know I lived my life to the most fun for those hours. But then, with that all said and done, how can I achieve it? I wish it was furs, wish it was with a group of furries so I feel that common ground will make me feel alot more comfortable and have a bond that can only be strengthened. Furries here in Brisbane are amazing.. I mean.. just the spirit and radiance of friendship here is second to none in knowing you can rely on them and they can rely upon you. So what to do? Option 1) There are a few Brisbane furs who I would love to party and rave with, so I can go with them. Option 2) I can leave the idea of furries and jump into the deep end at the parties and raves, hoping to find a group that I can socialise and party with. Or there's option 3) I could now and then travel to Sydney at a furry big gathering and find that common bond along with the parties and raves. They all have their downside, all have their upside, its what to do.
I'll leave it for now, thats more then enough for you all to glance over and get bored quickly, just to give you the knowledge of where I have been, whats new, and my thoughts.
To all my friends, thankyou for being there for me, making me feel I'm special to have as a friend.
To Drake, love ya lots, you do make my life special.
To everyone else, thanks for... I dont know.. =^.^=
Dont even know where to begin, seems so long, guess start at the big things, work through them. I have finally moved out of my home, the country prison to which for some reason people have been telling me they were jealous of my past living conditions. Fact is you cant take the city out of the otter, and living between two macadamia farms was driving me nuts... gawd the pun... I was glad to see the family was supportive, possibly because it meant I was out of their lives in the physical part. Though I never found myself scared, or fearful it wouldn't work out, guess the confidence in knowing I could take what I was given and dish it back in the city kept me feeling melancholy. Once getting up though I felt myself slip into the crowd like a jigsaw piece, occasionally I would get beaten, pushed into places I dont fit and cut to make sure I fit, but then again life forces you into many things you deal with.
Now that I am up here, in an apartment with my dragon (come to it later) and a snow kitty, I'm finally feeling the sense of freedom and with the opportunities galore in the city, an ability to take on what I wanted. As everyone has when they leave, finances are tight, but its quick to learn if you dont balance your account, you dont eat for the following week heh heh. Having to look for a job isn't strong either, many places are getting in-fluxed with people so they can be very choosy on their choice but with all that said and done, things here are slowly working out living wise, just having to rebuild my broken bed and my computer area more comfortably and my room will be to what I would like.
Then it comes to who is in my bed at this moment snoring like a chaff-cutter. Flamedrake the dragon and I are together, seeming to take things slow as me moving here has me more focused on surviving then being in a relationship, but with things settling, we can work things through more and we learn alot more with each other certainly living together. Its something I never saw coming, I guess I should have, we kinda struck a chord positively when we first chatted, but I never saw it to be where it was today, but then why should life have to go how I planned it, gotta have surprises in the soap-opera world of the otter. I'm not a huge gushy person, seems over the years from past boyfriends and relationships my romantic aspiration to make the other the angel they were to me has dwindled. Its neither ones fault, distance, lack of common grounds, couldn't wait any longer and seeing it deteriorate. So when it comes to blurbing the whole dictionary of sucky lovey dovey things that I feel for Drake, I think when he is in my arms he is safe, and loved, cant see what words could describe that sensation.
Out of the things thats happened, those few are certainly the most important. Its easy for someone to see where I am now just from that, I have an apartment, partner, and looking for a job, how thrilling.
Though how am I feeling right now.. Its difficult to say, with coming up here I came up on the idea of my dreams being full-filled quickly, that was a sore mistake to realise my dreams are going to take far longer then I hoped. Many know I wish to travel, to see the world, or at least America, I know far too many friends there that have really -really- kept me smiling in times of need. They all know it, so you all can get an extra inch swelled heads from knowing you've made me incredibly happy just being friends, even through text. Another is my social being.. I've been going through my head as to what am I? Am I a party goer? A raver? A gaming LAN obsessor? I want them all, but some here I just cant do with the friends I have, its just tastes, and again thats what makes us all unique.
I think lately, my needs aren't being met so they're becomming more hungry, demanding to be exposed and shown. I would like to be a party goer, wake up with hangovers, amazing stories of 'WTF night was that' and know I lived my life to the most fun for those hours. But then, with that all said and done, how can I achieve it? I wish it was furs, wish it was with a group of furries so I feel that common ground will make me feel alot more comfortable and have a bond that can only be strengthened. Furries here in Brisbane are amazing.. I mean.. just the spirit and radiance of friendship here is second to none in knowing you can rely on them and they can rely upon you. So what to do? Option 1) There are a few Brisbane furs who I would love to party and rave with, so I can go with them. Option 2) I can leave the idea of furries and jump into the deep end at the parties and raves, hoping to find a group that I can socialise and party with. Or there's option 3) I could now and then travel to Sydney at a furry big gathering and find that common bond along with the parties and raves. They all have their downside, all have their upside, its what to do.
I'll leave it for now, thats more then enough for you all to glance over and get bored quickly, just to give you the knowledge of where I have been, whats new, and my thoughts.
To all my friends, thankyou for being there for me, making me feel I'm special to have as a friend.
To Drake, love ya lots, you do make my life special.
To everyone else, thanks for... I dont know.. =^.^=