Sep 09, 2009 00:04
The years seems to have gone so fast. Amazing and albeit a bit scary at times. Surroundings and keeping busy seem to have kept me off track for a year. Hopefully the are shall undergo a but of a uplifting economic tide soon so i can get back on my previous hoped schedule. Ive lost quite a bit of contact with people once close to me, but perhaps the last few years and my own personal changes has proven reason for my ostricisation. Im not sure i should feel regret, people grow and change, schedules and lives change as do friendships and i can not hold onto all things past or present. I miss and shall miss many. But to grow and further that which i hope for i can not keep expending energy i don't have to keep so many ties goings, especially those that are felt ...unwanted. Or perhaps i'm thinking beyond my limits and only basing such thoughts on hard evidence i see, and forgetting the human machine that defies such simplistic mechanical qualities.