I dont know why it has happened now. I hate the feeling of loosing control over myself. The shivers, the sobbing, the tears, the paranoia
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The Marian thing: that happens to me more often than not, that when seeing someone gets closer and closer, I care about seeing them less and less. It usually is not something to worry about, as it tends to disappear once they're actually there. At least in my experience. I hope it's the same for you.
The Claire thing: I am convinced that she would understand you. Just because she has only shown you her fun side up till now doesn't mean that she doesn't have a more caring one. Everyone does, really, but not everyone necessarily shows it. And hey, she might be saying the same thing about you if all she's ever seen is your "fun, party" side. I say, give it a shot. Talk to her.
The flatmates thing: word. You need to see new people. Not because they're horrible, but but because it's important so that you stay sane.
The Dave thing: oh dear. He seemed like a pretty decent guy. If you're serious about liking him and maybe trying to see if anything would work between you guys, I think he'd be pretty open to a chat, no? But maybe see if you're going to change your mind again; ie, give it some time. I don't know that he'd appreciate you going back on what you said, especially since you already turned him down once.
So that was my opinion. Take it or leave it, as you wish. But I do wish you were feeling better. *hugs* And really, thanks so much for the weekend. Twas pretty great.
I feel a lot better now. On monday I started working like a maniac, to distract myself. I also talked to Claire about it, and she gave me an enormous hug. I haven't talked to my flatmates about it though. I am getting a little excited about Marians arrival again, but wether that is because of him, or the pressure of having all those meetings i have to go to on the same day as he arrive (and my wonders - will i make it to Manchester in time?) I talked to Dave about it...a bit at least, so far that I told him that I like him more than Marian. His reply was strangeish (was on msn) but when I saw him he seemed alright again. Yey. Tomorrow I am going to the Carleton (a bit like the Sugarhouse) to forget all the rest of my worries and collect "happy energy" so I can be normally hyperactive again on thursday ;-P
Haha...I am happy though that I wrote about this for the first time now, I think that helped me get better quicker.
The Claire thing: I am convinced that she would understand you. Just because she has only shown you her fun side up till now doesn't mean that she doesn't have a more caring one. Everyone does, really, but not everyone necessarily shows it. And hey, she might be saying the same thing about you if all she's ever seen is your "fun, party" side. I say, give it a shot. Talk to her.
The flatmates thing: word. You need to see new people. Not because they're horrible, but but because it's important so that you stay sane.
The Dave thing: oh dear. He seemed like a pretty decent guy. If you're serious about liking him and maybe trying to see if anything would work between you guys, I think he'd be pretty open to a chat, no? But maybe see if you're going to change your mind again; ie, give it some time. I don't know that he'd appreciate you going back on what you said, especially since you already turned him down once.
So that was my opinion. Take it or leave it, as you wish. But I do wish you were feeling better. *hugs* And really, thanks so much for the weekend. Twas pretty great.
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I am getting a little excited about Marians arrival again, but wether that is because of him, or the pressure of having all those meetings i have to go to on the same day as he arrive (and my wonders - will i make it to Manchester in time?)
I talked to Dave about it...a bit at least, so far that I told him that I like him more than Marian. His reply was strangeish (was on msn) but when I saw him he seemed alright again. Yey.
Tomorrow I am going to the Carleton (a bit like the Sugarhouse) to forget all the rest of my worries and collect "happy energy" so I can be normally hyperactive again on thursday ;-P
Haha...I am happy though that I wrote about this for the first time now, I think that helped me get better quicker.
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