the issues
Went back to the hospital after taking a bunch more pills. Nothing life threatening, in fact I just wanted to disappear, or feel high, for a while. 18 extra-strength excedrin to be exact. I have a liver that can be used for sewage treatment, because my blood tests were so clean that they don't even believe that I took the pills. I'm going with heroine next time, or maybe acid, or rat poison. So my command thinks I'm malingering. They can think all they want, but they can't charge me with it. The next day I talked to my doctor and a psychologist. My psychologist put in a recommendation for my discharge. Basically the doctors here in Bremerton keep saying that maybe the military is not for me, but I keep saying that's not an option. After being trapped in a tunnel for weeks, not being able to see any of my people in my home state, doing crap work and wasting my time, and being threatened and intimidated on issues concerning my treatment, the docs finally said enough. So they want to get me out. This particular psychologist says that he has never had somebody not get discharged when he recommended it. I don't know how he does, but he says he has a way of wording it... i don't know, man. We'll see what happens when I get back to Virginia. Now of course my platoon sergeant and my platoon commander are angry with me, and for almost the last week I have had to sleep from 9 pm to 5 am, and clean from 5 to 9, only stopping for meals and other essentials. Now I've been able to get them to let me work out in the evenings. The guys here are all for me, and I love them for that. And my folks and others have contacted both my congressman concerning this issue. Of course I'm willing to pull out the big guns, if need be, because nobody should have to deal with this crap and hopefully the next command who wants to bully one of their people while they go through psychiatric treatment will think twice about it. I'm holding on down here with that little sliver of hope that things could change. If I do get out now, I will have sufficient benefits with that. So don't worry about me if that happens. My meds are good, as far as I can tell, atleast they keep me pretty stable. None of the zoloft-enduced euphoria like last time, but not the harsh drop offs either. Love you all.