Out with the old...
Well the end of another winter break is here and classes start back up tomorrow so I thought I'd get back in the groove and start writing journals again. Overall Christmas '05 and New Years treated me well and I enjoyed relaxing, reading, and watching movies over the break. I don't have an official New Years resolution but I guess if I had to be pinned down to pick one I'd say "to be less fearful." I'd like to get to the point where I can truly follow my own path without being held back by the voices that say "you're going to fail!" or "that's not good enough" or "you have no business being there." I guess I'd like to stand up better to my own convictions and get to a place where I feel good about myself and the reality I'm in without drifting into a dream world whenever I get bogged down or feel scared and lonely. It's a big New Years resolution and it'll take a lot of will power and determination but I think I'm up to the challenge!
On a lighter note, I served as the Assistant Director for our first shoot in our Production Workshop test film. I think the shoot went fairly smoothly once we got the ball rolling. I kept having deja vu on the set because it turned out that the script that we were given to shoot was the exact same script that I shot for my Fundamentals project. Lines of dialogue come flooding back into my brain and like a trauma patient remembering some incident that had previously been forgotten I was back in another dusty apartment two years earlier shooting my first film. Hah, I feel like I should be a journalist or an author sometimes with some of the stuff that flows out of my fingers. You ever get the feeling sometimes that the person who's typing isn't really the physical you but some deeper part inside yourself that can't be quantified? I don't know maybe I'm full of shit or maybe I should please my inner-psyche and add "Write a book" onto my list of goals for 2006.
On a lighter note, I served as the Assistant Director for our first shoot in our Production Workshop test film. I think the shoot went fairly smoothly once we got the ball rolling. I kept having deja vu on the set because it turned out that the script that we were given to shoot was the exact same script that I shot for my Fundamentals project. Lines of dialogue come flooding back into my brain and like a trauma patient remembering some incident that had previously been forgotten I was back in another dusty apartment two years earlier shooting my first film. Hah, I feel like I should be a journalist or an author sometimes with some of the stuff that flows out of my fingers. You ever get the feeling sometimes that the person who's typing isn't really the physical you but some deeper part inside yourself that can't be quantified? I don't know maybe I'm full of shit or maybe I should please my inner-psyche and add "Write a book" onto my list of goals for 2006.