AAAAAAAAAAAAAH
Well it's late at night and I can't get to sleep. I've been having a crazy couple of weeks getting back into school. The big thing right now is Rocky Horror Show. I had hoped to get a lead in this show and had worked all summer to prepare for auditions. Now, since I haven't been more than ensemble in a musical and since i've improved in all three facets of Music Theatre (Singing, Acting & Dance), I thought I'd do alright in the auditions. Especially since this program goes on a partial turn casting protocol. (Meaning if I get cast as a principle in one show, I'll probably not get the next one to leave room for another person to get a role.)
I've just realized that i'm the only man in my class not to have a lead in a musical or even get a vocal solo in any show I've been in here. All I have to look forward to before summerstock auditions is Chicago, and at least two seniors are going to have turns then to be leads. There are only so many male lead parts in that show too.
I feel inadaquate in my field. If I can't succeed in this small community how can I succeed out in the real world? Agh! I can't stand being held back in my training. I just want to get out there and sing and act and dance, you know? Just show the world what I can do. And get something worth having on my resume. Do you realize the biggest role I've had was last year in As You Like It? I've been ensemble in every other show since getting to college. if I even got in a show. I need stage time. I need to stop being a part of the scene and start being a part of the story for once.
Again I apologize for making you read all of my crappy complaints in life. It's just something that's been bugging me. I needed to get it out.
I've just realized that i'm the only man in my class not to have a lead in a musical or even get a vocal solo in any show I've been in here. All I have to look forward to before summerstock auditions is Chicago, and at least two seniors are going to have turns then to be leads. There are only so many male lead parts in that show too.
I feel inadaquate in my field. If I can't succeed in this small community how can I succeed out in the real world? Agh! I can't stand being held back in my training. I just want to get out there and sing and act and dance, you know? Just show the world what I can do. And get something worth having on my resume. Do you realize the biggest role I've had was last year in As You Like It? I've been ensemble in every other show since getting to college. if I even got in a show. I need stage time. I need to stop being a part of the scene and start being a part of the story for once.
Again I apologize for making you read all of my crappy complaints in life. It's just something that's been bugging me. I needed to get it out.