mayans
it's horrible but now that the idea is logically in my head (since the history channel equates logic) i can't help but alter my dreams/goals/perceptions based on... the apocalypse. it's sort of like that timeless question, what would you do if you had a day to live. would you do good, do bad, or do nothing because you realize nothing you accomplish will leave any lasting powerful mark. and with all apocalypse senarios, this is especially true because there won't be an earth or a consciousness that will retain any mark or show any evidence of an impact. so it sort of makes my entire philosophy on living (live as an example, make decisions that you'd want your children to make, be strong because you are part of a continuing ancestory that wants you to succeed, we are all ambassadors) pointless. i'm not going to be able to have any children and all my strengths i've accumulated and all my obstacles i've passed are worthless. everything that i've waited to share with my children will be lost.
i hate that i randomly turned it to the history channel. i hate that the mayans were so smart at all these other things. i hate experts.
i'm a natural saver. i'm very good at waiting. i just don't want to be saving and waiting for nothing. and i really don't want to be investing in my retirement if the world isn't going to last long enough for me to enjoy it.
i hate that i randomly turned it to the history channel. i hate that the mayans were so smart at all these other things. i hate experts.
i'm a natural saver. i'm very good at waiting. i just don't want to be saving and waiting for nothing. and i really don't want to be investing in my retirement if the world isn't going to last long enough for me to enjoy it.