i hate my life
iluvralpiewggum: do you look at me in a differnt way than you do say ashley or anna?
iluvralpiewggum: honestly
Old Smelly Fetus: i just laughed to myself
Old Smelly Fetus: yes i do
iluvralpiewggum: why did you laugh?
Old Smelly Fetus: cus i look at u so differently
iluvralpiewggum: how so?
Old Smelly Fetus: well i never really liked or cared about them
Old Smelly Fetus: certainly not ashley... i never even really knew her
Old Smelly Fetus: which is soo bad to say
Old Smelly Fetus: but is the truth
Old Smelly Fetus: and then anna i knew enough to care about and at least not want anything like bad to ever happen to her but i never liked her...it was just something i did and dont even really know why i did it
Old Smelly Fetus: but then i've always looked at u as someone i would date
Old Smelly Fetus: but then at the same time its seemed to not work real well with us so nothing had ever happened
iluvralpiewggum: becuase i always just thought i was another girl to you...nothing special and i didn't wanna be in the same category as them
Old Smelly Fetus: yea and thats completly understandable
Old Smelly Fetus: i mean i have plunty of things to look at and just make someone turn away
Old Smelly Fetus: and probably even more that u dont know about
iluvralpiewggum: who doesn't though
Old Smelly Fetus: and thats why i've never like forced myself on u at all or anything
Old Smelly Fetus: yea
Old Smelly Fetus: well i'd seriously never force myself on anyone
iluvralpiewggum: i apprieciate that
Old Smelly Fetus: but i just mean i've never like done what a guy is probably suppose to do to make me and u closer
any guesses as to who the other person is that i am talking to in this conversation?! i can't believe i had the guts to ask him the question that started all that...damn. fuck. life sucks. he is leaving in like a week for college too. all my friends are. fuck. i wanna curl up and cry. fuck