Moving Forward
I've been feeling a little lost in time lately. Today I decided to stop it.
I realize that might have come out a little cryptic and overdramatic, but it's pretty accurate. For whatever reason, I've been very hazed lately - unmotivated, exhausted, and weeks have been flying by a little too quickly.
I have stuff to do, after all.
And I need to get back on track.
I would love to be practicing more, but the first thing I need to do is clean out my house. Every floor. Every space in my brain. It's all too cluttered - there are ideas I need to get over and past, costuming that I'm never going to wear, things I can do very well without.
Then I can practice.
I'm not going to aerial anymore either - not until I can do real pull ups on my own, and real standard pushups. The things I'm struggling with in class I can work on solo (I just need to grunt it out and do it) and the things I'm not struggling with I'll pick back up again. Continuing to struggle in class with basics of strength isn't really doing me or my wallet any good.
And that is enough for now. That's quite a lot actually.
I started the cleaning process yesterday - did the guest bedroom, pulled a garbage-bags worth of stuff to toss, found three costume pieces to sell, and it's just that much better. And OMG guests can actually hang their things in the closet!!! Tonight I want to tackle the living room and kitchen and hall closet, which is going to be a linen closet if I have to knock down walls to do it. No More will people repurpose that closet for games and kitchen run-off. It will hold towels and sheets cleaning supplies and related items, and then we will see what space is left.
I'm also picking up another book shelf. For the books.
I'm also really unhappy with my weight right now. I don't know if it's a fat gain thing, or a water retention thing, or a muscle gain thing, but I'm going to go back to paying better care to what I put into my body. Namely not confusing thirst with hunger, and putting more water into it, and not eatting junk, and then putting more water into it. I should know better, with the risk of kidney stones and all.
I now have three work trips left, and only one of them will give me any free time for "local things." Unless I just terrified my boss into rescheduling flights, in which case there will be no time for "local things." Time will tell.
Time is short.
I realize that might have come out a little cryptic and overdramatic, but it's pretty accurate. For whatever reason, I've been very hazed lately - unmotivated, exhausted, and weeks have been flying by a little too quickly.
I have stuff to do, after all.
And I need to get back on track.
I would love to be practicing more, but the first thing I need to do is clean out my house. Every floor. Every space in my brain. It's all too cluttered - there are ideas I need to get over and past, costuming that I'm never going to wear, things I can do very well without.
Then I can practice.
I'm not going to aerial anymore either - not until I can do real pull ups on my own, and real standard pushups. The things I'm struggling with in class I can work on solo (I just need to grunt it out and do it) and the things I'm not struggling with I'll pick back up again. Continuing to struggle in class with basics of strength isn't really doing me or my wallet any good.
And that is enough for now. That's quite a lot actually.
I started the cleaning process yesterday - did the guest bedroom, pulled a garbage-bags worth of stuff to toss, found three costume pieces to sell, and it's just that much better. And OMG guests can actually hang their things in the closet!!! Tonight I want to tackle the living room and kitchen and hall closet, which is going to be a linen closet if I have to knock down walls to do it. No More will people repurpose that closet for games and kitchen run-off. It will hold towels and sheets cleaning supplies and related items, and then we will see what space is left.
I'm also picking up another book shelf. For the books.
I'm also really unhappy with my weight right now. I don't know if it's a fat gain thing, or a water retention thing, or a muscle gain thing, but I'm going to go back to paying better care to what I put into my body. Namely not confusing thirst with hunger, and putting more water into it, and not eatting junk, and then putting more water into it. I should know better, with the risk of kidney stones and all.
I now have three work trips left, and only one of them will give me any free time for "local things." Unless I just terrified my boss into rescheduling flights, in which case there will be no time for "local things." Time will tell.
Time is short.