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I am a coward. Yet, as I type this, I am in Florida with Chris and Phil. I know my responsibility was to stay in LA and take care of all the shit that was falling around there.
But, as usual, I took the easiest way out and took the first invitation offered to get myself out of the state. Same night Stitch and Matt left for NY (last night), I talked to Phil, and consequently boarded the next plane out of LAX to Tampa, FL, and ran away. As I'm sure you're all thinking, "as usual".
Well, fuck you. Fuck everyone who thought I could handle it. Fuck anyone who thought I could take seeing both my best friend and my boyfriend kill themselves. Fuck anyone who thought I could survive another band breakup. Fuck anyone who thinks I'm an asshole or a coward. I know I'm both. Fuck you all.
Fun times in Florida. See, Stitch, you could be here if you hadn't fucked up. You could have come with me. In hindsight, do you now see why you are an idiot? I still love you, man. You're still my bro, but that was a truly stupid thing you pulled. Learn from it, don't do it again. For your own sake.
But, as usual, I took the easiest way out and took the first invitation offered to get myself out of the state. Same night Stitch and Matt left for NY (last night), I talked to Phil, and consequently boarded the next plane out of LAX to Tampa, FL, and ran away. As I'm sure you're all thinking, "as usual".
Well, fuck you. Fuck everyone who thought I could handle it. Fuck anyone who thought I could take seeing both my best friend and my boyfriend kill themselves. Fuck anyone who thought I could survive another band breakup. Fuck anyone who thinks I'm an asshole or a coward. I know I'm both. Fuck you all.
Fun times in Florida. See, Stitch, you could be here if you hadn't fucked up. You could have come with me. In hindsight, do you now see why you are an idiot? I still love you, man. You're still my bro, but that was a truly stupid thing you pulled. Learn from it, don't do it again. For your own sake.