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[mightywingman]

I finally talked to Amanda today. It was awful, its almost as if I just wish I hadn't called in the first place. I just cryed my eyes out when we hung up. I can't habdle this. I don't cry, but I am now. How can things be so different, how can you not care so much? Are we too immature for her? Is our tiny little world not important enough? I love

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brooanda never dies.

[jumplilkid]

brooke im so sorry. i know it was weird. the thing is- i knew it was a bad time to call you since i couldnt leave the room or anything, but i wanted to talk to you anyway and i wasnt sure when id get the chance to. i love you. i know a lot has changed, but i just don't know what there is that i can do about it. you arent immature, you are my best friend. and i do care. i care so much. i don't know when ill be able to come home again, but as soon as i do, i promise you will be the first to see me. even before i make it home, ill stop to see you first. i hate being so separated from you and the girls, and i wish i didnt feel like im not part of our group anymore, but i guess going away to college doesnt really give people any options. i dont know what goes on with yall anymore. i dont know your new friends and you dont know mine. i wish i could. i havent changed so much as you think, i dont think. its just that i live in a completely different world now. its nothing like highschool- in as many good ways as bad- and itmakes me so sad to feel so lost from you. i love you i love you i love you. i will call you again sometime when im alone so i can really talk to you. things will be good and the same as we used to talk- you'll see. you are it, brookyln. you are the one person i have been through thick and thin with and I won't lose you. not ever. i know i have been a shitty friend way too many times. i know it. i am still being a shitty friend and im so sorry. i will be better. i know i will. i love you too much.
-manda