Shego, that thing you did during sparring today really hurt. [He has probably said this like twenty times to her face, already.] My shoulder's turning purple
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I'm really worried about your shoulder. I also want to know what the situation is between you and Shego. I find it very confusing and I dislike being confused.
Knowing absurd things like who you're dating makes me feel like I have control over my own life.
One, we're not dating. Two, she's teaching me self-defense. If I have to use anti-magic again and wind up with only one working arm I want to know how to use it to defend myself. You don't hit much harder than I do but it's still hard to fight with one hand literally dead.
Not that I'm planning on hitting you again unless you deserve it. I actually don't like fighting with you.
It's my anti-magic, and it makes me feel unique because no one else has it. You can't have any.
I don't want to threaten you, either. Don't be ill. In my head all I'm hearing is "talking to you makes me sick" and I don't like that. I won't talk about hitting you anymore.
Talking to you doesn't make me sick. I like talking to you most of the time. Sometimes I don't, but it's because I'm a contentious and emotionally constipated person who doesn't particularly like to socialise.
And so are you.
I understand why you won't share your anti-magic, but I feel very envious and am determined to change your mind somehow. I hope you understand.
Neither am I. In fact, Martha encourages me to behave that way in some circumstances. I'm probably setting a poor example for you, but I don't care, because I'm not your parent.
Martha tells me I'm your family a lot. That makes me uncomfortable because my father was abusive and my mother was negligent. As that is the only family I've known, I worry subconsciously that she thinks I'm abusive and negligent toward you. But I'm not sure how that works, you see, because I'm not your father.
But I act like I am.
The whole situation confuses me and I don't like being confused.
I miss being your warden, though.
I want to go get really drunk now. The thought of trying to develop the same relationship with Sirius Black that I have with you makes me want to throw things.
I don't remember mine. I've always just had a teacher, but since I was like -- six -- when Destane first took me, I suppose the closest thing I can think of to a parent is a teacher. Or a mentor. Mentor sounds better. Sounds fancier. And I look at you that way. And you're a better mentor than Destane was -- not a difficult feat, but you're a much better mentor. So if that's a parent then you're sort of already mine.
...I think I like Arkady. I don't really understand her. But she doesn't come off as insipid to me, which is weird. Most Wardens do. I don't know if it's because I'm changing -- I don't want to change -- or if she's actually just that interesting.
I think I can handle being your mentor. I like it. It makes me feel important and needed.
I want her to be a good warden. I don't want to see another one fail you. You should have tea with her as often as possible so she gets attached to you and doesn't leave.
I do need you. I don't say it and I don't enjoy thinking about it because it's weak. I don't like it when things that I feel like I need can be taken away from me.
And I just don't like talking about things with you. Like Akio. And Destane. I don't like talking about those things because it actually matters to me whether you're disappointed or disgusted. I don't like that, but that doesn't make me dislike what I did either. It just makes me quietly dislike everything I went through even more.
Now I want tea. My shoulder hurts and I have no tea.
I won't be disgusted or disappointed in how you behaved before you came here, or even before you became my inmate. I even think some of your actions were justified, if inappropriate.
You should have tea with Martha sometimes. She really likes you, too. I don't like to have tea except for breakfast, so if you come here, I will probably wish I could be drinking alcohol, but I try not to overindulge and after my last bender, I'm worried people will think I'm an alcoholic.
You would have been laughing with me. I like almost everything when I'm intoxicated - and in most situations, I feel better the next day.
The first time I used a communicator while drunk, the next day was only bad because I had a one-night stand with Martha and told her I didn't regret it.
It's acceptable to laugh with me when I'm intoxicated. You won't have many chances otherwise.
Knowing absurd things like who you're dating makes me feel like I have control over my own life.
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Not that I'm planning on hitting you again unless you deserve it. I actually don't like fighting with you.
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Also, it makes me uncomfortable when people threaten to hit me. Especially you and Martha.
Talking about this is making me ill.
I'm very impressed with your anti-magic weaponry. I want to learn to make it so I can use it against people I don't like.
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I don't want to threaten you, either. Don't be ill. In my head all I'm hearing is "talking to you makes me sick" and I don't like that. I won't talk about hitting you anymore.
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And so are you.
I understand why you won't share your anti-magic, but I feel very envious and am determined to change your mind somehow. I hope you understand.
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I understand but it's never happening.
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Martha tells me I'm your family a lot. That makes me uncomfortable because my father was abusive and my mother was negligent. As that is the only family I've known, I worry subconsciously that she thinks I'm abusive and negligent toward you. But I'm not sure how that works, you see, because I'm not your father.
But I act like I am.
The whole situation confuses me and I don't like being confused.
I miss being your warden, though.
I want to go get really drunk now. The thought of trying to develop the same relationship with Sirius Black that I have with you makes me want to throw things.
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I don't remember mine. I've always just had a teacher, but since I was like -- six -- when Destane first took me, I suppose the closest thing I can think of to a parent is a teacher. Or a mentor. Mentor sounds better. Sounds fancier. And I look at you that way. And you're a better mentor than Destane was -- not a difficult feat, but you're a much better mentor. So if that's a parent then you're sort of already mine.
...I think I like Arkady. I don't really understand her. But she doesn't come off as insipid to me, which is weird. Most Wardens do. I don't know if it's because I'm changing -- I don't want to change -- or if she's actually just that interesting.
She makes good tea.
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I want her to be a good warden. I don't want to see another one fail you. You should have tea with her as often as possible so she gets attached to you and doesn't leave.
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And I just don't like talking about things with you. Like Akio. And Destane. I don't like talking about those things because it actually matters to me whether you're disappointed or disgusted. I don't like that, but that doesn't make me dislike what I did either. It just makes me quietly dislike everything I went through even more.
Now I want tea. My shoulder hurts and I have no tea.
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You should have tea with Martha sometimes. She really likes you, too. I don't like to have tea except for breakfast, so if you come here, I will probably wish I could be drinking alcohol, but I try not to overindulge and after my last bender, I'm worried people will think I'm an alcoholic.
I'm not.
It was just a really horrible week for me.
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The first time I used a communicator while drunk, the next day was only bad because I had a one-night stand with Martha and told her I didn't regret it.
It's acceptable to laugh with me when I'm intoxicated. You won't have many chances otherwise.
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