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It's amazing how a picture ...or in this case 4 or 5...can destroy all your built up self esteem. I have been on this diet now for 5 months and have lost over 40 pounds. I have been fighting with my weight almost all my adult life and this has been the most I have ever loss. I have to pull my belt so tight that the waistband bunches up. Going soon to have to buy some new jeans. In other words this diet is working.
I say all that to say this. We had our Halloween party last Saturday. I was looking foreword to it. I had a new costume, a NCIS agent. A NCIS windbreaker, hat and and badge around my neck. The rest of the outfit was a white button up shirt, black tie and black slacks. I thought I looked good...then I saw pics from the night. God did I not like what I saw. I looked dumpy and well just all around bad. I looked less like a field agent and more like a joke of a rent-a-cop. It hit me hard. I can't seam to get happy. It's not like I don't know I am still fat but just the pics just smacked me in the face. The main thing I got I still have a LONGGGG way to go....just bla
Till next time...ACK
I say all that to say this. We had our Halloween party last Saturday. I was looking foreword to it. I had a new costume, a NCIS agent. A NCIS windbreaker, hat and and badge around my neck. The rest of the outfit was a white button up shirt, black tie and black slacks. I thought I looked good...then I saw pics from the night. God did I not like what I saw. I looked dumpy and well just all around bad. I looked less like a field agent and more like a joke of a rent-a-cop. It hit me hard. I can't seam to get happy. It's not like I don't know I am still fat but just the pics just smacked me in the face. The main thing I got I still have a LONGGGG way to go....just bla
Till next time...ACK