Back to school
It's Thursday night, and tomorrow I'm going to school for the first time since last Tuesday. I tried going to sleep but couldn't. I'm nervous. This sickness only bothered me physically until today. I feel disconnected with everyone. My closest friends have been really cold to me recently. I've only seen one of my friends in the past week, god bless her soul, and even though I've tried talking to everyone else a lot of people have been somewhat distant. I surprised myself with how much I kept talking to someone. I miss her. I guess I'm just at a point where I have to realize which of these kids I'm still going to be talking to in 6 months when I'm at college. I never realized how temporary some of my friendships were until I got sick. My heart beat is up and I can't get it to go down. I'm nervous about something and I have no idea what it is. I keep thinking that the best part about all this is that because it's mono I can't hook up with anyone for a few months. It feels good not to worry about girls. I can't wait until I go to USC again. Things are so much simpler 3000 miles away. I love simple shit. I have to get my heart rate down so I can sleep. Aren't you supposed to be really tired when you have mono?? Oh well, I'm excited to see everyone again. Teachers better not fuck with me or I'll spit in their coffee and give THEM fucking mono. Godless sons of bitches. I feel like it's the end of summer vacation or something. Except it's about to get so much better cuz school's ending. Fuck all. One love.