T_T
today was very long and strenuous. i had so much to do with so little time. my first english paper was due, along with economics, pre-cal, and then i started my college essay, all of that with five classes. by the end of the day, i had a headache. @.@ and i hate walking over to the science building on my gimpy foot in fucking humid weather. at least my foot isn't totally fucked up. just a bad sprain. but it's already feeling better. so i think by friday i'll be good, and i'll just wear the brace for safety's sake.
school stuff aside, what really put a damper on my day was i found out the guy i like likes someone else. W.T.F.???? *sarcastic, dry, tired tone* i met him the week of my birthday this past may at a concert i went to, kind of through my sister cause they go to school together. it was really weird because we both had the same birthday's and both were left handed. anyway, his name is mark, and we started talking over myspace for a while. we ended up meeting a few times over summer vacation. what really started the more "serious" talking, if you want to call it that, was when i saw him at work once. he ended up hanging out with my until i finished my shift. after that we talked more, and hung out a few more times. we never hooked up, but the both of us openly admitted we liked each other.
so today, he tells me something like this: 'we're really good friends and i don't want you to think i'm "leading you on" but theres this girl i like, so don't be mad at me!' i'm not pissed or anything, because nothing seemed to be happening between us anyway... but i ended up telling him, 'i can't help who you fall for. don't worry.' but yeah... it's not this horrible "OMG i'm gonna die because the guy i like, likes someone else" kind of thing. just kind of depressing. i think a really big part of it is because he's more religious than i am. and i can understand that, because ive grown up in a christian household as well. and i have the feeling that he doesn't want my views of things to interfere with his beliefs and cause him to do things that he knows he wouldn't do under different circumstances. i actually haven't asked him if that's why he never asked me out. but deep down i know that's what it is. but hey, i can't help the way i am, and what i believe in just as much as he can't. so right now, we're still friends. -sigh-
i think today just overwhelmed me a bit. i kind of feel like curling up in a corner and sipping on a bacardi silver. ;_; haha. now i'm taking on jerusha's liking of corners. corners. yes. now im rambling over something that makes no sense.
i have to sell chocolate covered stuff for MAC tomorrow. it's the first fundraiser of the year and i want it to have a decent profit. i hope everyone brought the crap they said they were gonna bring. it doesn't take long to make it. it took me 10 minutes to make my chocolate covered pretzels. and i made 2 bags damnit. the freshmen are so funny. and even a sophmore. they either ask me permission to use the restroom during a meeting or address me as "miss president." haha. i told them they didnt have to do that but it still took about a week for them to stop doing it.
i was in HEB today and i saw a tabloid that said: the world is going to end on 11/9/2006. i was very amused. according to the cover, world leaders have known this secret for a while, and have finally fessed up to it. including president bush. bahaha. end of the world?? who can seriously predict the actual day?? it claims the date came from the bible. i was half tempted to actually buy the tabloid and read the crap they came up with. lol.
school stuff aside, what really put a damper on my day was i found out the guy i like likes someone else. W.T.F.???? *sarcastic, dry, tired tone* i met him the week of my birthday this past may at a concert i went to, kind of through my sister cause they go to school together. it was really weird because we both had the same birthday's and both were left handed. anyway, his name is mark, and we started talking over myspace for a while. we ended up meeting a few times over summer vacation. what really started the more "serious" talking, if you want to call it that, was when i saw him at work once. he ended up hanging out with my until i finished my shift. after that we talked more, and hung out a few more times. we never hooked up, but the both of us openly admitted we liked each other.
so today, he tells me something like this: 'we're really good friends and i don't want you to think i'm "leading you on" but theres this girl i like, so don't be mad at me!' i'm not pissed or anything, because nothing seemed to be happening between us anyway... but i ended up telling him, 'i can't help who you fall for. don't worry.' but yeah... it's not this horrible "OMG i'm gonna die because the guy i like, likes someone else" kind of thing. just kind of depressing. i think a really big part of it is because he's more religious than i am. and i can understand that, because ive grown up in a christian household as well. and i have the feeling that he doesn't want my views of things to interfere with his beliefs and cause him to do things that he knows he wouldn't do under different circumstances. i actually haven't asked him if that's why he never asked me out. but deep down i know that's what it is. but hey, i can't help the way i am, and what i believe in just as much as he can't. so right now, we're still friends. -sigh-
i think today just overwhelmed me a bit. i kind of feel like curling up in a corner and sipping on a bacardi silver. ;_; haha. now i'm taking on jerusha's liking of corners. corners. yes. now im rambling over something that makes no sense.
i have to sell chocolate covered stuff for MAC tomorrow. it's the first fundraiser of the year and i want it to have a decent profit. i hope everyone brought the crap they said they were gonna bring. it doesn't take long to make it. it took me 10 minutes to make my chocolate covered pretzels. and i made 2 bags damnit. the freshmen are so funny. and even a sophmore. they either ask me permission to use the restroom during a meeting or address me as "miss president." haha. i told them they didnt have to do that but it still took about a week for them to stop doing it.
i was in HEB today and i saw a tabloid that said: the world is going to end on 11/9/2006. i was very amused. according to the cover, world leaders have known this secret for a while, and have finally fessed up to it. including president bush. bahaha. end of the world?? who can seriously predict the actual day?? it claims the date came from the bible. i was half tempted to actually buy the tabloid and read the crap they came up with. lol.