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Today was another rough day. Woke up with an ache inside that just won't go away. I miss her. I feel like I finally understand what it means to truly love someone and everything about them. The point where you just do, no conditions or qualifications, just love them...their beauty and passion as well as their flaws. Only they don't seem like flaws but just quirks that further endear them to you. Knowing deep down that while you might occasionally fight or disagree, it won't matter because it just doesn't. That they can tell you something bad and you know that you'll love them anyway because you do. Knowing that if you fell asleep next to them every night and woke up beside the every morning, it would be all you wanted. That no matter how hard your day was, for the last three years you looked forward to coming home and seeing her there.
"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way"
just...fits...
And now here I am...too late...and I don't know what to do. Do you give up on something like this? Do you just walk away and let it go? Something that feels so precious and beautiful? It feels wrong to give up but I have no power to change her decision. If I thought I had even a small chance, I would wait because I believe what we could have is worth it. Instead I'll dry my eyes and wash my face and put on a smile when she comes home, I'll turn up the ocean as she talks on the phone at night, and try to bury it all down deep. But how do you forget love? Help.
"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way"
just...fits...
And now here I am...too late...and I don't know what to do. Do you give up on something like this? Do you just walk away and let it go? Something that feels so precious and beautiful? It feels wrong to give up but I have no power to change her decision. If I thought I had even a small chance, I would wait because I believe what we could have is worth it. Instead I'll dry my eyes and wash my face and put on a smile when she comes home, I'll turn up the ocean as she talks on the phone at night, and try to bury it all down deep. But how do you forget love? Help.