my skin is dry??
well my skin is dry, i should put lotion on it.
and im not sure what's wrong with me. but i'm still jittery bleuchy like. maybe i'm spending too much time on the internet. or online. or just staring at my monitor. but i feel really really icky. and it started again when i was looking at prom dresses. maybe the thought of spending almost 200$ for a prom dress makes me nauseous. idk. or maybe the absence of chris online makes me eh???
in any case. we had a snow day today. i didnt do much. i should have slept more but i couldnt sleep. i watched a trailer for spiderman 3. i want to see it. and i found random youtube videos with people crushing a structure. it was interesting.
i'm thinking maybe i should read the 6th HP some more. or do my theory homework that i didn't do yesterday?? i almost finished the quilt. and thats exciting. it kinda looks like crap now though which kinda makes me sad.
i'm making a list of the things i want to buy sometime in my life.items range from a new lappy to plastic storage bins to mahogany furniture and a tempur pedic bed to an rx8 and then back to some argyle fabric. i also have determined i may be a size 7 pant now becuase my hips got slightly larger, so i therefore need to go pant shopping. i'd also like to buy more underwear and new shirts and a pair of stilettos. i want to look classier than i do. i could if i put effort into my everyday appearance. i could also put makeup on. i feel like i need that zing! again. i'm tired of being the drab wintery self i am. its time for change. and excitement in life.
in other other other news. i need someone to talk to for random hours at a time. chris has disappeared from the earth due to school work and. i dont know who to talk to. i talk to danielle but its not satisfying. i crave that deep thoughtful conversation. i dont want to hear about your high school drama or blah blah waaa. deep thoughtful meaningful conversatoin. you can even talk to me about bicycle's with square wheels that require a rounded floor to work if you want. i enjoy that.
life is not going smoothly in the significant other dept.
boyfriends who are angry with their phone/paper/the fact that their 3rd soource fell off the earth and not the most pleasant. and dont talk to you. and just get angry. i need to just chill becuase im going to snap soon i think. i mean i understand the stress. but he wasn't really...around for me last week when i was under all the stress. but i will be here and try to help. although im kinda like maybe you should come back to talk tome when you're ready to treat me like your girlfriend who needs some tlc?
plugh. i need a hug. a meaningful hug. not empty hugs.
i did almost finish that quilt though. and its wednesday. tomorow is thursday, i have OM. then friday. i have an eye doctor appt. then saturday i go to monica's baby shower. and then i see chris. and then we come home sunday at like 8am to get to jeremy's court of honor i think?? and then he's home for spring break until like wednesday when he goes to csernak's....and then i wont see him again till the 24th. and if i'm lucky i won't have to work. which would be nice. really nice. but idk how thats going to work.
moo. i wish things would work out.
and i have to find a prom dress. blah.
things = not working out for me right now. i want to be happy.....rawrrrr!!!!!!!!
i need to do theory homework, cause i didnt do it yesterday
love for you if you choose to accept it....and you can give it back to me. i need some. thanks.
and im not sure what's wrong with me. but i'm still jittery bleuchy like. maybe i'm spending too much time on the internet. or online. or just staring at my monitor. but i feel really really icky. and it started again when i was looking at prom dresses. maybe the thought of spending almost 200$ for a prom dress makes me nauseous. idk. or maybe the absence of chris online makes me eh???
in any case. we had a snow day today. i didnt do much. i should have slept more but i couldnt sleep. i watched a trailer for spiderman 3. i want to see it. and i found random youtube videos with people crushing a structure. it was interesting.
i'm thinking maybe i should read the 6th HP some more. or do my theory homework that i didn't do yesterday?? i almost finished the quilt. and thats exciting. it kinda looks like crap now though which kinda makes me sad.
i'm making a list of the things i want to buy sometime in my life.items range from a new lappy to plastic storage bins to mahogany furniture and a tempur pedic bed to an rx8 and then back to some argyle fabric. i also have determined i may be a size 7 pant now becuase my hips got slightly larger, so i therefore need to go pant shopping. i'd also like to buy more underwear and new shirts and a pair of stilettos. i want to look classier than i do. i could if i put effort into my everyday appearance. i could also put makeup on. i feel like i need that zing! again. i'm tired of being the drab wintery self i am. its time for change. and excitement in life.
in other other other news. i need someone to talk to for random hours at a time. chris has disappeared from the earth due to school work and. i dont know who to talk to. i talk to danielle but its not satisfying. i crave that deep thoughtful conversation. i dont want to hear about your high school drama or blah blah waaa. deep thoughtful meaningful conversatoin. you can even talk to me about bicycle's with square wheels that require a rounded floor to work if you want. i enjoy that.
life is not going smoothly in the significant other dept.
boyfriends who are angry with their phone/paper/the fact that their 3rd soource fell off the earth and not the most pleasant. and dont talk to you. and just get angry. i need to just chill becuase im going to snap soon i think. i mean i understand the stress. but he wasn't really...around for me last week when i was under all the stress. but i will be here and try to help. although im kinda like maybe you should come back to talk tome when you're ready to treat me like your girlfriend who needs some tlc?
plugh. i need a hug. a meaningful hug. not empty hugs.
i did almost finish that quilt though. and its wednesday. tomorow is thursday, i have OM. then friday. i have an eye doctor appt. then saturday i go to monica's baby shower. and then i see chris. and then we come home sunday at like 8am to get to jeremy's court of honor i think?? and then he's home for spring break until like wednesday when he goes to csernak's....and then i wont see him again till the 24th. and if i'm lucky i won't have to work. which would be nice. really nice. but idk how thats going to work.
moo. i wish things would work out.
and i have to find a prom dress. blah.
things = not working out for me right now. i want to be happy.....rawrrrr!!!!!!!!
i need to do theory homework, cause i didnt do it yesterday
love for you if you choose to accept it....and you can give it back to me. i need some. thanks.