Skinny people will never understand...

[midnightwow20]

Weight has always been an issue in my life. I have never really experienced a happy medium in that area. In high school I dropped to a size four by doing horrendous things to my body at the hands of an eating disorder and now I am reaping the consequences. My metabolism is basically non-existant so over the past four years I have almost doubled my

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[neomora]

if i were a lesbian, id totally make out with you. i think youre hot. lucky for you, im not :). i understand hon...i was 30 lbs heavier than i am now at it hurt to have my family telling me i had big legs and a big butt. i knew i had to do something just so i could be healthy! my eating habits totally changed but i never "dieted". i still feel self conscious....thats why i joined curves. most of the women are mom aged so you can go in there w/ a baggy t shirt and you wont care. i dont care that i walk out of there like a sweaty pig...and they dont either. but i think your right...our society is weird. marilyn monroe was the ideal of beauty and im sure now she would be considered "chunky"..whatever. i think youre beautiful..but thats just my opinion. if you ever want to talk...id love to. ive been there w/ the overweightness and the anorexia...im here if you need me

[midnightwow20]

Thanks so much for the talk this afternoon. It made me feel ten times better. It is always good to talk to someone who totally understands where you are coming from, having gone through such similar experiences. I love you and are so glad we are friends! I hope to see you tons over the summer! :)

[white_hot]

i understand how you feel. if you need to talk, i'm always here for you. and i agree with karla that you're beautiful, but i also know that it doesn't really matter how many times someone tells you that unless you feel that way about yourself. . . and that's probably the hardest thing of all. we'll chat sometime. . . i'll see you soon.

[joojoobe]

Along the same lines of what Karla said. . .The summer I met you, I gained 30 pounds (damn mutant). I became very depressed with myself and myself image. It's hard. But I learned 3 very valuable lessons from that summer. . .I need to watch what I eat, exercise and not hang around mutant any more.

I don't see you as overweight. You are a wonderful friend and no matter what you look like on the outside, you are the same (beautiful) on the inside.

If I was a lesbian, I'd invite Karla to join us. . .but I'm not.

Sorry I never came back downstairs when you were over. I hopped in the shower, threw on some pj pants and fell asleep in a puddle of my own drool on the couch. That's what I get for staying up until 5 am two nights in a row.

Awww...you guys :)

[midnightwow20]

Thank you all for the wonderful comments. It truly put the biggest smile on my face. You all are so wise and such great friends!! I am blessed to have you all in my life:)

Julia - don't worry about not coming back downstairs...I know how that goes.

Hopefully I can see some of you before I leave on Tuesday but if not, I shall be back on the 8th (with a CAR!!!) and look forward to seeing everyone!

Re: Awww...you guys :)

[kshady]

Though it's horrifically superficial and completely against everything you so eloquently posted, I thought I would lead you to something else that will make you smile:

http://www.livejournal.com/community/queerasfolkfans/1190874.html#cutid1

Re: Awww...you guys :)

[kshady]

ps: the third pic is my favorite

Re: Awww...you guys :)

[midnightwow20]

OH MY GOD!!!! It's so hard to pick my favorite. You know, only Gale/Brian could pull off the ivory suit with pick shirt! Thank you Thank you Thank you!!! I'm was almost forgetting how absolutely GORGEOUS he is!!! Only twenty-four hours until I can see him again! :)

P.S. - My best friend Garen and her friend Aaron are coming to stay with us on Thursday. Just to let you know.

[heartnsoul2the1]

Izapp, dont worry I too feel uncomfortable in ANY place where spandex reigns supreme.

[midnightwow20]

oh Jamie! I just knew I could rely on you to make me laugh!! Thanks....really! :)