My life...
...right now sucks. I cant seem to get my head in my books where it needs to be. I think I am so far behind in homework that it will take me 3 or 4 days to catch up. Now I am sitting here, thinking "why do it now, just wait till the weekend" but then I have to feel stupid. I am starting to realize that maybe I am just not the person I want to be. I know how to get to be that person, but I am either too lazy or am just realizing that I will never be that person. Never the person that anyone wants me to be. I think I am just doomed to failure. Everytimne I try and concentrate on something I never do it. I make up excuses for myself.
I am going to put duck tape on the inside of my door so that I cant get out and I have to get everything done. I dont even know why I avoid it, I never want to be with people but then when I am alone I just want to be around people. Depression kills. Then again, I'm probably just turning into my mother with this "poor pittiful me" bull-shit, which just makes me even more depressed.
alas, I am me. Maybe not for too much longer, I dont think anyone will notice.
I am going to put duck tape on the inside of my door so that I cant get out and I have to get everything done. I dont even know why I avoid it, I never want to be with people but then when I am alone I just want to be around people. Depression kills. Then again, I'm probably just turning into my mother with this "poor pittiful me" bull-shit, which just makes me even more depressed.
alas, I am me. Maybe not for too much longer, I dont think anyone will notice.