"Ah yes threeve. A mixture of three and five."
I was oh so happy, but now I'm kinda sad again. I saw someone today that I didn't need to see. It made me so sad, but what can you do? It was all so pointless, and I knew it from the start. It's not wise to fall for someone who's been in a relationship for over two years...It was an accident, Officer, I swear....*sigh*. He looked so beautiful. That stupid gorgeous light that just radiates around him....I love people like that. The kind that just walk into a room and everyone is so happy to see them. The kind that just effortlessly brings a smile to your face. The kind of person that just draws you in...God, I can be so dense in the head sometimes. Old habits die hard.
Anyway....I could barely stay awake during school today. Sleep last night was a disaster. And I had a terrible dream...the kind that you wake up so depressed only to be relieved once you know it's not real.
I've been doing rather well on my diet. Sure I've made a few unwise decisions, but that's natural. So far no complete binges and nothing too bad. Matt Uteg called me fat today, and though I know he was joking it is still embedded in my mind. I've lost about four pounds, which is about one-fifth of what I want to lose.
I'm trying not to let all these shitfaces bring me down, but what can you do? I do have my kitty watch that Kandra gave me though,lol, after she read my poems. She thinks I'm so depressed,lol. Cracks me up. But seriously, writing is oh so therapeutic.
I can't fucking wait until I turn 18.
I never liked History, until this year. Mr. Gusler is a grood (great and good) teacher. It almost makes me want to be a history teacher instead of a language arts teacher...almost.
Kandra , this poem's for you! Not dedicated to you,lol, but it's happier than normal so I think maybe you'll be glad.
“By You”
You gave a single moment
That lit the stars for me.
Summer waves joining distant tides,
And diamonds touching the milestone sky.
The lust was designed by you,
Lured by me and followed outside to my car.
We’ll never fall in love, my dear,
But it didn’t matter much it seemed
Stretched skin to skin under the moonlight
Filtered through translucent windows
Steamed by breaths and wordless speech.
I’ll weep for never loving you,
But smile in satisfactory yawns.
My God, you looked so beautiful
stretched out underneath me.
A moment adorned in summer’s goodbye
Lit the stars for me.
Intimacy designed by you.
Got to listen to Andy's hilarious tale of getting way too drunk for his taste with Ryne and whoever else at lunch today. It was amusing. If I ever decide to get drunk, I think it's gonna be with those cats.
I'll shut up now.
Anyway....I could barely stay awake during school today. Sleep last night was a disaster. And I had a terrible dream...the kind that you wake up so depressed only to be relieved once you know it's not real.
I've been doing rather well on my diet. Sure I've made a few unwise decisions, but that's natural. So far no complete binges and nothing too bad. Matt Uteg called me fat today, and though I know he was joking it is still embedded in my mind. I've lost about four pounds, which is about one-fifth of what I want to lose.
I'm trying not to let all these shitfaces bring me down, but what can you do? I do have my kitty watch that Kandra gave me though,lol, after she read my poems. She thinks I'm so depressed,lol. Cracks me up. But seriously, writing is oh so therapeutic.
I can't fucking wait until I turn 18.
I never liked History, until this year. Mr. Gusler is a grood (great and good) teacher. It almost makes me want to be a history teacher instead of a language arts teacher...almost.
Kandra , this poem's for you! Not dedicated to you,lol, but it's happier than normal so I think maybe you'll be glad.
“By You”
You gave a single moment
That lit the stars for me.
Summer waves joining distant tides,
And diamonds touching the milestone sky.
The lust was designed by you,
Lured by me and followed outside to my car.
We’ll never fall in love, my dear,
But it didn’t matter much it seemed
Stretched skin to skin under the moonlight
Filtered through translucent windows
Steamed by breaths and wordless speech.
I’ll weep for never loving you,
But smile in satisfactory yawns.
My God, you looked so beautiful
stretched out underneath me.
A moment adorned in summer’s goodbye
Lit the stars for me.
Intimacy designed by you.
Got to listen to Andy's hilarious tale of getting way too drunk for his taste with Ryne and whoever else at lunch today. It was amusing. If I ever decide to get drunk, I think it's gonna be with those cats.
I'll shut up now.