here is a scale weigh it out
um....
gay night
UBER gay night.
i think i'm coming down with laryngitis. it hurts to talk.
main street last night was cool
kicking it with my homie natalie. she's so fucking hilarious
and she makes me feel cool. she's so nice to me.
gio ditched me for that rude little asian fucker and that guy that looked jewish.
i'm sorry if that offended fucking julian, but that guy looked fucking jewish.
i saw gracie fucking wasted, which was funny for me.
sigh.
long sigh.
bad day today.
just one of those domino affect days.
i'm not in a good mood.
nor am i feeling very positive about myself.
but it helped seeing rikki, nats, and roxanne.
they made some good points.
kept me from making a further ass of myself which i might have done.
i think i'm going to forget this completely.
just say, "fuck it" and give up this shit.
i have better things to do with my time and energy.
fuck getting what u want.
that's not what life is about.
life should really be about a sort of communal vibe.
keeping in mind what's best not for u, but for the people around u.
that's what's wrong with the world today.
that's why people like louis are so god damned fucking special.
that boy thinks only of others.
it's like he lives for serving others.
i admire that, but it hurts me to see it taken advantage of.
louis is one of my role models.
i hope i can be as good of a person as him someday.
speaking of good people, christina vane.
i think it sometimes goes unnoticed what a good person she is and how much she sacrifices and she's such a good girl.
doesn't dabble in the vices of drugs, drinking, or smoking.
i'd die if i didn't have mind altering substances of some sort.
but she does it.
wow.
i'm a really weak person. i realize that now.
i have no self-control. i want to fix that. really i do.
becuase self-control equates to selflessness and not being selfless is the same as being selfish which means i am a selfish person because i don't have enough self-control.
no more dwelling on sadness either.
there's too much shit to do to have time for that.
martine got an lj. Hella yeah. that's the highlight of the weekend.
screw that. best thing for the fucking month.
gay night
UBER gay night.
i think i'm coming down with laryngitis. it hurts to talk.
main street last night was cool
kicking it with my homie natalie. she's so fucking hilarious
and she makes me feel cool. she's so nice to me.
gio ditched me for that rude little asian fucker and that guy that looked jewish.
i'm sorry if that offended fucking julian, but that guy looked fucking jewish.
i saw gracie fucking wasted, which was funny for me.
sigh.
long sigh.
bad day today.
just one of those domino affect days.
i'm not in a good mood.
nor am i feeling very positive about myself.
but it helped seeing rikki, nats, and roxanne.
they made some good points.
kept me from making a further ass of myself which i might have done.
i think i'm going to forget this completely.
just say, "fuck it" and give up this shit.
i have better things to do with my time and energy.
fuck getting what u want.
that's not what life is about.
life should really be about a sort of communal vibe.
keeping in mind what's best not for u, but for the people around u.
that's what's wrong with the world today.
that's why people like louis are so god damned fucking special.
that boy thinks only of others.
it's like he lives for serving others.
i admire that, but it hurts me to see it taken advantage of.
louis is one of my role models.
i hope i can be as good of a person as him someday.
speaking of good people, christina vane.
i think it sometimes goes unnoticed what a good person she is and how much she sacrifices and she's such a good girl.
doesn't dabble in the vices of drugs, drinking, or smoking.
i'd die if i didn't have mind altering substances of some sort.
but she does it.
wow.
i'm a really weak person. i realize that now.
i have no self-control. i want to fix that. really i do.
becuase self-control equates to selflessness and not being selfless is the same as being selfish which means i am a selfish person because i don't have enough self-control.
no more dwelling on sadness either.
there's too much shit to do to have time for that.
martine got an lj. Hella yeah. that's the highlight of the weekend.
screw that. best thing for the fucking month.